What the heck is wrong with me?

[Raggedy-Ann]

I haven't posted in awhile. I was turned down a second time for disability. My depression is to a point I don't want to talk anybody. The letter said "I maybe sad and forgetful" SAD! SAD! FORGETFUL! FORGETFUL! Everyday I deal with an illness that attacks my will live. I've had 21 rounds of old school ECT and 3 concussions from being rear ended. The last was really bad. I can't remember what I am doing while I am doing it. I've had several visits to psyche wards..... They only asked my primary doctor, who knows very little about me as she refused to help with my depression and my psychiatrist who just prescribes.

Lately I've been having dizzy spells and falling all over the place. I am cut up and bruised. I am struggling with perspective. I went to work with my pants on backwards, came home changed into shorts and a t-shirt a few hours later I noticed I felt like I was being choked. My t-shirt was on backwards. My curtain rod fell pulling the bracket off the wall. I did some patching and rehung the bracket with some good adhesive. Later I noticed it was upside down. I put together a lift top coffee table. it took 3 days and when I tried it at the end I put the lift brackets on backwards. I need a routine, change really messes me up. I set alarms for everything, cooking, watering, appointments, ...I have set a few fires on my stove. My most spoken word theses days is ouch.

[Dolphin14]

I'm sorry this has happened with the disability.

What I know about the process is you need a hood paper trail to show your treatment plan.

Do you have a therapist? You only listed primary MD and psych.

How many times are you allowed to appeal? Perhaps getting a lawyer might help?

You are going through quite a bit. Please be careful

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[LoveforAll41]

I am so sorry you are going through all of that Raggedy-Ann! I would second dolphin and ask if you have found a good therapist? I think they can go a long way. I know that there is a lot you have tried, but there is usually more stuff to try. I wish you sucess and peace, hope, and strength

[hopeforjoy]

Thinking of you and wishing you relief from and help for your issues. I know it's hard to want to keep trying after being denied, but please keep trying -- you never know which straw will break the camel's back of unfair resistance you're dealing with, and then the rightful doors will open for you.

[SayNOtoPanic]

Big hugs. Lifting your in prayer Raggedy-Ann. Just vent as much as you need to. You’re not alone. The system is definitely a hot mess. Agree with the previous responses about not giving up and get the paper trail going from the physicians. Also get a new psych if you’re not being supported and not benefiting. You need support from ur docs. Big hugs.

[Stippler]

Have you gotten an attorney to represent you for disability? They usually don't charge you unless you win, and then only a percentage of your lump sum. The lump sum gets bigger the longer you are disabled before getting approved. If you don't have a disability attorney, get one as you will never succeed by yourself. Sending prayers.

[Agora1 in reply to Stippler]

That's so true Stippler in that a disability attorney only charges if he wins.

My daughter won first time around at a young age. Unfortunately, she is still

sickly with Anorexia and was in the ER the other night. Electrolytes were critically

low. xx

[Stippler in reply to Agora1]

Sorry to hear about your daughter! Sending prayers. 🙏🙏🙏

[Agora1 in reply to Stippler]

Thank you Stippler. You are so kind

I hope one day she sees the light and makes a healthy turnaround. xx

[SayNOtoPanic in reply to Agora1]

prayers up for your daughter Agora.

[Agora1 in reply to SayNOtoPanic]

Thank you so much SayNOtoPanic...

It breaks my heart to see her struggle. xx

[SayNOtoPanic in reply to Agora1]

You’re welcome. Of course, that’s your baby. Hugs to you and Healing prayers for her.

[Raggedy-Ann in reply to Agora1]

So sorry to hear about your daughter. I had that problem as a teenager. I was a competing athlete and had to look a certain way. I hope the doctors can help her.

[Agora1 in reply to Raggedy-Ann]

THank you Raggedy-Ann for your wishes. I hope so too. xx

[car103]

Agree with Stippler. Get an attorney. It's really important.

[littlemawther]

you sound like me~i m much older,but quite strong apart from a painful back,hating where i live and therefore my mental health~

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I suggest the same as everyone else, of getting an attorney if you don't have one. Your case sounds compelling so, maybe that's the thing you need. I truly hope you keep trying. I'm also going through the disability process and, it's grueling so, I understand. Virtual hug.

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I'm sorry things are so rough for you. Keep trying for disability since you know it would help you. KEEP trying despite the rejections ...