Feeling very depressed after two days in a row of not taking my meds.

[UkyoCoanccy]

I was feeling much better for certain period of time and I was thinking if there is a possibility of discontinue my meds one day. I hope that I not longer have to depend of my meds to be able to manage my life again. But one day, I I couldn't go for for my meds on time to the pharmacy and I lasted two to three days in a row without talking my meds. I did not think that it were going to affect me so much because I was feeling good for long time but on the second day of not taking them I started to feel pretty bad. Besides the physical feeling I felt a deep sadness, a lot of fears for everything and I felt very hopeless. The most minimum problem was a huge problem for me. I just wanted to cry, I fear for my present and future in life, because I loose control of myself. I asked myself why do I need those meds in order to feel a bit better and in control of myself. Why if I always struggled with the problem of my life alone. Why did I loose my strength.? I felt lost. Well, after the three days I started to take my pills again. I started to feel much better and my strength came back to normal. I was thinking, why was I so afraid of? Damn!! Even though I am feeling better and I have my strength back, the question is still the same. Am I going to depend of meds all my life to be able to control my own life again. ?

[LoveforAll41]

Hi Ukyo! I am glad that you have your strength back.

I have felt that way before and wondered if I might feel more alive or better if I didn't have meds. Whenever I quit taking them though or go off of them things get bad. I am at peace knowing that I may have them for the rest of my life. That being said, I might try to go off of meds once my kids are grown and I can perhaps schedule some time to go through side effects and perhaps bad bouts of depression.

I did end up on an SNRI vs an SSRI which leaves me with much more energy, I was so drowzy all of the time for years on an SSRI.

I think it is empowering to be at peace with perhaps taking meds forever, and this acceptance enables me to have hope. Know that if you do go off of meds it is usually tapered, not cold turkey, and I think that a lot of prep should probably go into it. At least if you are like me and have been on and off for years.

I wish you peace, strength, and hope

[Agora1]

Hi UkyoCoanccy, you are very fortunate in getting yourself back in sync after stopping

your medication for several days. It's how medication works in making us feel invisible

as to we can do this on our own. Then we go off meds (which isn't recommended w/o a

doctor's knowledge) and we plummet fast and furious. It doesn't mean that we may

have to be on meds the rest of our lives. Being on medication offers us some time in

trying other things such as therapy (to address the fears) and other tools that can be

used in place of meds. But right now you need that support of the medication until

you find an alternative in popping a pill.

Please have a talk with your prescribing physician as to what an alternative may be.

If and when he thinks you are ready to come off your meds, it must be done slowly

and safely under his care. I wish you well and don't get discouraged. It will happen

when the time is right for you. xx

[Celtic27]

Hi there i wouldnt play around with your medication as it was given to you for a reason if you are having problem with it go to you doctor and then if he thinks you maybe need to adjust are change you meds then this is the safest way to do it i wish you all the best take care !