I cannot fit in the outside world

[Against_the_current]

"Don't you study psychology?"

"I started working at 18"

"You're not mentally ill, just weak"

"You're too mentally ill for me, go to the mental hospital"

My recruiter is always like "as a psychology student". No, the fact that im a psychology student doesn't mean i can manipulate people, am an extrovert and don't struggle myself. Being a psychology student means i realise how messed up everything is. But not that im social or know how to manipulate people of don't struggle.

The boy who jumped off the roof, told me im too mentally ill for him and to go to the mental hospital and blocked me.

The recruiter "find 5 people to recruit and they find 5 people and they find 5 people". Are we starting a zombie apocalypse? In this case im so introverted, that if i became a zombie, there would be no apocalypse. I would infect nobody. I have nobody. I feel like I shouldn't accept the job...

Wish the outer world was like here, understanding of mental health. Not the either "you just need to be more extroverted and chill" or "you're crazy. You're so negative, i won't communicate with you". I haven't spoke to people irl since the Ukrainian girl went back to Ukraine. Where to find 5 people? Also i promised her to write some topics for the final exam and I still haven't. I think I can't do this exam. Especially if i accept the job. It would really get me into the hospital. Im always crying, dizzy and nauseous. And i have the exam and trying to apply for an internship in journalism when im conscious.

Why aren't there jobs for mentally unstable people?

[SoporRose]

”The recruiter "find 5 people to recruit and they find 5 people and they find 5 people". Are we starting a zombie apocalypse? In this case im so introverted, that if i became a zombie, there would be no apocalypse. I would infect nobody.”

You are so wickedly smart. This statement is both bitter and funny and shows that, while you are dealing with mental illness, you’re not out of touch with yourself nor with reality.

I’m unclear what job this is that requires you to find five people to being in, but it does not sound like the right job for you.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Thank youuuu. Exactly