Idk who is who in my family

[Against_the_current]

Firstable i thought dad's the bad guy. Then mom. Adored sis and thought she's much stronger and mature than me. Then sis told dad about my job without my permission and he will stop my funds and i felt like those two betrayers. Or maybe im overreacting, i hope i am. Then mom supported me on the phone but pointed out how bad's dad which made me feel really bad because now im having ptsd flares even though I took a Clonasepam and im sleepy while having a long panic attack while having ptsd flares while questioning reality and who is who in my family

Ik many people are divorced but they can easily point out the good and the bad guy. I can't. It's a deadly puzzle, making me question reality

[Starrlight]

Maybe things aren’t so black and white, either good or bad… but everyone is in between, with some good and some bad in everyone, you know?

[Against_the_current in reply to Starrlight]

Yeah, you're right. I guess i was right they have some flaws and shouldn't beat myself up so much. And because of my anxiety i was seeing them all in black and then felt guilty. Starlight, thank you so much for being here. Im in a critical condition and all alone and you're here for me and calming me

[Starrlight in reply to Against_the_current]

I’m so glad I can help.

[Against_the_current in reply to Starrlight]

I really need it

[Starrlight in reply to Against_the_current]

I’m here for you. I am telling myself today that it’s only anxiety and things seem worse with it it’s not actually as bad as our anxiety makes it out to be.