Feeling alone

[Oceanblues1]

In the past month I've started a new job, it's boring but it's the company I've always wanted and clear progression. Most people have been remote working so they'll only come in once a week maybe twice but I've been hired to be there daily. It's lonely, I can go a whole day without speaking to anyone. It's much further than I'm used to too, it'll take 45 minutes to get there and 1 hr 10 on a good day back home. The drive gives me so much stress and I just wake up dreading it, my hours are 7:30-4:30. I don't really see friends as often as I'm spending the weekends just doing chores and getting ready for the week. I have celiac so I have to be very careful where I eat I try to prep healthy meals but I get to about halfway through the week and I just don't want them anymore. I ended up getting pretty sick the past weekend and having to take 2 days off from work due to gluten exposure but I had to get back to work and it's been taking a toll mentally and physically. I've been struggling with the chores and housework lately and especially while I was sick so I had to get my partner to help but it always seems like I'm being a pain or nagging. He works close by and it's the first time he is having to step up to do some of these things but he acts like he's doing me a favor by helping out. It gets to the point I just don't want to ask anymore and I just get on with it myself. Don't get me wrong he does help with some things as and when he wants to it's just I feel like I'm overwhelmed right now and I need the extra support but anytime I ask for it I just don't feel like I'm getting it. I'm sorry for the rant but I feel a lot better getting it off my chest, I just feel really alone right now.

[VeganMoonBeam]

Hi Oceanblues1,It's an awful feeling alone--I am sorry this is your reality. Especially when you have a job, partner, etc. Loneliness is my reality too. Along with job anxiety (haven't worked for 2-1/2 years) and a somewhat non-responsive husband. It's hard to simply survive sometimes. We share this loneliness bond...so we are never really alone. I wish you wellness and the courage to make your days a little bit brighter. ☺️

[Oceanblues1 in reply to VeganMoonBeam]

Thank you for your message, it is good to hear that I am not alone even on days I feel like it. I wish you the same too and I appreciate your response.

[rubyrhythm]

I think transitions are hard. Having a new job that it sounds like you really wanted, but having it paired with some other changes that aren't wanted must be tough. I remember a few boring jobs and, wow, I struggled on some days waiting for the work day to be over. Whenever I go through a life transition, it takes me some time to figure out how to navigate the new schedule and find ways to adapt.

[Oceanblues1 in reply to rubyrhythm]

That is true. I hope you're right and that it will just take time to transition, it is nice to hear your experience too.