Impending doom

[Against_the_current]

Always have such feeling. Had it at school because of bullies, had it at home with mom, have it here with landlord and flatmates. It's driving me crazy. Psychologists make it worse, starting "maybe you were left unstable as a baby" which frustates me because it doesn't help me, it just makes me more mad at my parents and imagine a non-psych person telling me im weird and mean and me trying to explain its because i was probably mistreated as a baby. But idk whether that's the case of always feeling in danger. Maybe i just really live in danger. Im sorry im off, just someone who supported me online is in a really bad mood and doesn't tell me why. Plus my country and university don't give a damn about me. Even basic thing. No crisis line. Not allowed to call emergency for psychological emergency. No funds for internship even though the EU sent money, the government sent money, probably burocracy stole them and they have the audacity to yell at me for trying to get that internship because it's my right as an EU student and supervision is expensive. Wanting a job but being scared to even leave my room. So much impending doom, i stay covered in my bed and scared

[SoporRose]

All I can say is that I am still so sorry for what's happening to. you and that I am hoping for some kind of miracle to happen. It sounds as if you have no avenues to get the help you need and that is terrible.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

It is. Im sorry if i sound so helpless or discouraged you. You're helping me a lot, I didn't want to discourage. I'm just not on myself since that Sunday

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

Please hang in there and keep letting us know how you are.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Thaaank you. That's what I need. Someone to care

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

I do. I keep thinking something will give way and a path will open up for you. I still hope that will happen.