I come by here while answering a couple of private messages. Thanks to all those who have sent me PMs — and my apologies for being very late in posting a reply. I assume most of us struggle with the same difficulties in maintaining engagement with a community. Even if online and if this is a welcoming community like this one.
Anyway, January and February were difficult for me. But March was much better. I feel like I attained (and maintained!) some kind of equilibrium.
It is not an exciting and productive life. But at least I don't have suicidal thoughts anymore, and I do not spend all day ashamed and angry for having wasted my life. By most people's standards, it wouldn't seem a very high achievement. But for me, it's not that bad.
To all those who are suffering, I send you my support and deep understanding.
Needing the Better Me Back
Don't be like me, be better then me
It gets better, trust me!
Make me Better 
Bipolar Realizations have me so low I can't stand it. Someone please help me see better.
