Needing the Better Me Back

[SeakingLight]

I'm not doing good and I just can't seem to get a grip. I read my book of scriptures and try and exercise a little, but mostly can't make myself. I don't do anything all day, like seriously don't. I fed the kids meals, which the older ones cook dinner three nights a week. I don't clean at all. I help kids with what they need for like an hour a day maybe. My college classes aren't interesting and I really don't want to do them. I work on school about an hour a day. The rest of my time I just sit around feeling awful inside.

It's just never been this bad. I don't know how to shake this.

[Kens2]

I feel you, ever since i had anxiety attacks my body dont feel right no more. I get sore shoulders and neck, weak muscles heavy head, now my tummy has been upset i just feel hungry all the time then get cramps stabbing pains its so dreadful im coming to a point where i cant deal with it anymore. My body gets soo tired from doing absolutely nothing on a daily basis, i have a paŕtner, but everytime i mention that my body aches or something to do with my anxiety he just gets all mad and tells me that " its just all in my head " which gets me so upset.. i hate anxiety!!!

[SeakingLight in reply to Kens2]

Yeah it's not the best. I've been dealing with this since I was 12 and have ups and downs. My spouse is very supportive and wants to help me, but I just don't know how others can help. I'm sorry to hear your partner doesn't have your back on the matter.

[Kens2 in reply to SeakingLight]

Yeah iv only just been diagnosed with it bout 3 months ago now, its not the easiest thing to go through aye

[Theloudone]

I know the feeling. It’s daunting

Is there anything you can do for self care? Take a bath, or read a book, stretch, light some candles?

[SeakingLight in reply to Theloudone]

Yes. I try and do those things. My therapist has asked me to leave my home and do something by myself. That's a really scary thought, but I'm going to give it a try.

[Theloudone in reply to SeakingLight]

A nice walk in nature? Try a guided walking meditation maybe

[Yesterdayhurts]

I understand that feeling of being alone in a room full of people. It feels like you have lost your zest for life. Everything feels like an endless loop. Finding something you enjoy and rewarding yourself with it when the monotous is done. If you like scripture join a Bible study group or simply talk with someone who knows Jesus. I know personally to get thru this tough time I have been reading about the Jews trek thru the desert and all they had to overcome to reach the promise Land. Feel free to contact me.

[SeakingLight in reply to Yesterdayhurts]

I love that you're studying that. It's also great to know they did get through the wilderness. Sometimes that's the hardest thing, pushing through when no one around you really understands the struggle. My spouse just feels it's their fault I'm unhappy, which is difficult. It's not their fault.

I tried to study religion with family members via zoom during this pandemic and it's not been good for me. Family seems to load me with feelings of self loathing when I study with them. My regular scripture study group can't meet with the pandemic.