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I don't know what to write here. Every time I need somebody they're not there. Every time I let somebody into my life, every time I make myself vulnerable to what my parents call my benefit , it kills me in the end.

I watch the show called arrow on cw. And there's a villain who knows the superheroes identity. The villain's name was Adrian Chase . The superhero, arrow, used to kill people and wanted people arrow killed was Chase's father. Chase goes through a very elaborate scheme of making arrows suffer, and one of the things he points out to him is that everyone who comes into contact with him dies or suffers and his life is poison that corrupts others nectar.

Arrow isn't like that. I am. And I'm at the point where I have to go back to the homeless shelter again I will do something that will prevent me from ever talking to another human being again.

I don't know if anyone see this, I don't use this app often. I don't know anymore I'm lost I'm broken I don't think anyone cares and frankly? If we are born to die and we all die to live, then what's the point of living life if it just contradicts?

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leaningonjesus

i read your post

and i deeply feel your pain, heartache, frustration, and being beyond fed up with life and all that it involves

i cant say anything to change things for you, i cant do anything to help however i want you to know i read your message, i feel your pain, i care about you and i will keep you lifted in prayer.

🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻

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BlueStar7

Hello. I don’t know you but I care. We may go through some things in this life, but there is hope. Sometimes life gets really rough and patchy and we feel like that’s it… we’re stuck. But we’re not. I deal with things also, but I have faith in Jesus. HE is my hope and peace. Some days are harder than others but He never leaves. I pray that you feel His peace, in the middle of the storm. We have a real enemy, and all this suffering isn’t Gods plan, but He uses these things for our good in the end. You’re not alone, I do care. Although I don’t know you. As for the show, it does sound like it doesn’t add value to your life/feelings. It’s something that is so appealing but in the end is it really adding joy and peace? Some things to consider is maybe tracking what you are listening to and watching. This is all just my advice, but the one thing to remember is that if you believe that Jesus cleanses you from all sin/unrighteousness and that He saves, it will be the best thing. My life has been difficult but I know that when that day comes and I see my maker face to face.. everything else that has pained me will be gone. I’m the midst of chaos He truly gives me peace. I will be praying for you

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Marysblue

I understand your frustration with people. Still learning to just take care of myself cause people do dissappoint me alot. Most people have so many problems with their own life, can't be a help to anyone else and most can't even help themselves. I hope things get better for you.

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dwhp

idk but you have not seen life so go yourself some fun. How can you be tired when you don’t even know what you’re tired of? I’m 30 years older than you and I’m not even tired of life yet.

Go! Go live life then come back and complain to us so we know what to complain about too.

let us know!😀

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Florida1959

go out and get some life, I am 65 and not tired of life, one step at a time, you got this!

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012703060610

This site is full of stories and troubles of many. I can feel how much you are hurting and I am so sorry. I can fully say this group "cares" and is a true life line. While we are pretty much anonymous, it is helpful for me to keep this forum as a place where I know I can say anything without judgement. You may get a few whacky responses or crazy ideas...but I come here for the humor too. I'm 43 and am not done living yet either....but there are those days that the loop plays. Why do we have to fight so hard? It can few like nothing makes sense.

In regards to people, it has taken me all of these years of living to realize I only need a very few close people in my life that bring me enough joy. Yes I still very much battle with some mental health struggles, but far less than my 20s and 30s. In youth and moving to adulthood, and with the wave of technology, everything can feel so urgent these days. Heck I basically worked my job so hard, I am now disabled. Not from the actual job, but from the hours and stress. I wish I had better advice for your generation. I have three younger kiddos and I have no idea how to prepare them the best for how the world seems to work now. For some reason, I really don't do social media. I still don't have Facebook and I'm pretty sure every parent does. I have this site and work made me use LinkedIn. I find that I need less of those triggers to feel better. I focus on the ones who I know will love me in return.

You mention homeless shelter? Are you safe? It's one of my biggest worries through my struggles over the years. The need to feel safe was always on my mind and still is today.

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HisChild4ever

There were many times for several years when I would feel the same way you feel and I am really sorry about your pain!! But I would like to make something very clear.

Regarding what happened in the show Arrow, YOU are in NO WAY someone whose life "is poison that corrupts others' nectar." That is NOT TRUE ever!!

The truth is that Arrow's life is not poison that corrupts others' nectar either. His enemy Chase tells him those things because he wants Arrow to suffer.

Also, the truth is that even if in this real life everyone who would come into contact with a specific person would die or suffer, in this real life there is a God who is in control of this planet and He is the One who knows why things happen and the purposes for everything.

We are not alone! You are not alone!

The reason that there is suffering and death and evil things in this planet is due to Satan ruining life here on Earth. (Adam and Even disobeyed God after Satan's temptation and that resulted in sin and suffering being parts of life everywhere.)

Many of us have felt hopeless, damaged, worthless, alone, betrayed, abandoned and have also had desires to die, It is very painful to suffer a lot and to see that things don't get better!

Sometimes we tell ourselves negative things and also Satan comes uninvited to make us feel worse and to tempt us to give up. But God is near and God loves to be there for us.

God made you. God made you amazing and precious. God made all human beings and He truly cares about all human beings.

You matter a lot! You are important and your life is important to God! I would like to encourage you to talk to God and to ask Him for help.

Unfortunately, we all suffer. But it is a very good thing that God exists and I really hope that He will bless you so much and guide you a lot and comfort you and give you His love.

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HisChild4ever

"Lord, be gracious to us; we long for you. Be our strength every morning, our salvation in time of distress.” (Isaiah 33:2)

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