I'm struggling

[KitKatCake]

I didn't expect to be back on here again. I've recently been going through a lot and experiencing the worst anxiety and depression that I have ever experienced. My sister recently was in life changing surgery again, my Grandma has cancer and her husband may have kidney cancer (still waiting on the test).

At the same time my university is ignoring my asking for counseling (which was promised to me before I applied), they aren't giving me the support for exams they should be resulting in me failing and I'm trying to rent a house for next year.

I'm really struggling to get up everyday and I have panic attacks from looking at my phone out of fear of a message from home. I live 300 miles from my family so there is no one I can talk to and my friends aren't ones I am comfortable talking to.

Any support or advice on how to feel better of distract myself will be really appreciated. Thanks

[minimalnomad]

Hello KitKat,

I am sorry for your problems.

It's hard to try to get better on your own. Maybe you can try to go out, take a walk in the park or have a coffee with someone? Find a partner to go to the gym instead of doing alone at home...

The phone thing can be quite difficult, have you tried a Digital Sunset?

Maybe that will help.

[FindingTheAnswers]

Hi. Sorry to hear that life is ganging up on you. I've been in your situation, and I know that what you're going thru right now is Hell on Earth. Being 300 miles from home does make it worse.

Does the school have a Doctor or counselor you could call or go see? I know that even making a phone call could be so overwhelming for you right now, but if there is a Doctor available maybe they can prescribe something that will ease your symptoms.

I agree with minimalnomad. It may sound lame, or useless, or whatever, but try to go for a walk. Just to get out of your room, if for nothing else to act as a distraction-try to get away from the thoughts that are consuming your mind. For me, staying inside by myself, on the couch, etc doesn't help. Even the thought of getting off the couch can seem like an impossible task-but give it a try. Is there student area-just to be around other people even if you're not up to talk to them? Any classmates (or teacher?) that you could go see that might be helpful? And yes, I know that if you try to talk someone it may not go well, as they've never experienced what you're dealing with, or they may just not know how to talk with you about this. Regardless, try something positive to do-as I said before even if it's to distract yourself for a little while.

I wish I had something definite that would ease your pain. It was years/decades ago since I was where you're at, and oh yeah, I remember how bad it was. Please realize that you're not totally alone. There are a lot of people on this website who understand also.

Good thoughts and prayers too. Most of all, I wish you Relief. Please hang in there.