Adult Bullying, Depression, and Anxiety

[AnonymousPS]

I have been experiencing adult bullying. I am 33 years old, no husband, no children. I currently have been experiencing adult bullying from caregivers, who care for my mother. They are hostile, belittling, etc.

My mother has been sick now for 6 months, and is bed bound. She has an incurable disease, and she has seen over 40 doctors in last 6 months. I have seen her be admitted to the ER 7 times. It has been emotionally draining, and psychologically upsetting. I recognize to have PTSD from stress, worry, etc.

It has caused me depression encountering all these trespasses that life has thrown at me. I find myself feeling stuck, feeling like a failure, sad, psychological and emotionally injured. I am not able to find solutions to overcome this current situation. And, I have not found resolutions to the issues that I face.

The town I live in is racist. It has caused me to be overwhelmed with sadness, depression, and grief. I am unable to grow and to heal in a town that is like this. The town I grew up in has changed a lot, for the worse. Its overpriced, few restaurants, not happy people/mean, not much of an educational town (no college nearby), and it has homeless people throughout the streets (which hurts to see because people are struggling).

My optimism about life has not helped in recent times in a tangible way, despite efforts to keep trying which has challenged me the last few months. It really is a poor environment: my town is too small, no social support, and it does not have a lot to offer as a town, with no prospects.

I have kept trying. I have depression and anxiety. I walk a lot during my free time which alleviates my depression. However, the cycle of depression and anxiety come with the issues that hurt me presently. I do not have any friends. The last time I was really social was during college, but that was back 10 years ago.

I have financial worries about going homeless after my mother passes. I do not have a stable job. I use to work for my mother who is in real estate as a personal assistant. I do have a degree from college along with other certifications.

I really do need a nice dude in my life who can care for me. I do not have any male prospects. At 33, turning 34 soon, it is starting to feel abnormal not having this area of my life beginning.

[Sabbath1]

Record the caregivers being hostile and all that and then expose them . Caregivers are supposed to be good people doing good people shit .

&Sorry you're going through all this

[ThePineRoamer]

are people being hostile because you’re going to be 34? So tired of things like that

[012703060610]

Hey there, thank you for sharing your post. Boy do I get it! I was forced to move to a state to be able to have custody of my kids and it is beyond racist. I can't stand it. I am also mostly depressed due to physical issues, but the state of the world has me feeling very unsteady. I am 43. I think the walking is good and I started a few guided meditations. We are all you friends here and want to support as we all can. It honestly sounds like you are doing everything right, but just in a situation you cannot leave. Not to worry on meeting a guy...it will happen and when you least expect it. The father of my kids was in my MBA class and we were mid 30s. My best friend who is 55 is just getting married for the first time. I think the best you can do is look for a stable job now and keep moving. If you are not in therapy, I highly suggest. You may need a focused therapy for PTSD depending on how you feel or all of the past history. Sending all positive vibes!

[Kelkel00]

I am so very sorry for your struggles, I really am. I will be praying for you and your mother!