post traumatic stress/ anxiety

[Seaturtlemama72]

Hi. I have been suffering from anxiety for almost 1 1/2 now. Had a unexpected fall while alone & broke femur: resulted in partial hip replacement. Then my husbands multiple myeloma returned & COVID. I isolated for his sake & before I knew it I had panic attacks every night, depression & anxiety. Tried different meds, which only made me too sleepy to drive. That loss of independence did a bad number on my confidence. Lost over 30 lbs from loss of appetite. I have seen several different psychiatrist and been doing talk therapy for over a year. My husband passed in June which meant being uprooted from my home and went to a over 55 community. Very depressing and shocking. 5 months later moved to an apartment with my sick sweet dog. I am so tired of fighting this illness. My sister lives close but she is stressed to the max so the situation is not always pleasant. I am a Christian and God helps but I miss my self. I feel like I have lost my life. Do not get to see my children & grans except rarely. Too far away. I do not feel comfortable driving here in a new city. Sometimes I just feel so alone & trapped. I want a life again but am so afraid. My old hobbies, shopping & reading & traveling are mostly ruined because of COVID. Anyone else out there struggling with loneliness and what to do with their time? It is very hard for me to get out & go places now. I want to find myself. I know she is there somewhere! Any suggestions? Former Beach Lover

[Kelkel00]

I’m so sorry, I don’t really have any sage advice but I can certainly sympathize as my mom is in a very similar boat. It weighs on me a lot that she’s so far away and I can’t really help her.

I will be praying for you to find peace and comfort in our Lord and Savior.

Bless you!

[Marysblue]

You dont have covid. Right? I might try venturing to some parks or a library or stores nearby. See what you can find close by. Go on Meetup app and see if there's any groups in your area. Or Council on Aging groups. Or volunteer and meet good people. Some might give you a ride. It's quite an adjustment to move to a new place and it does take time. Maybe you could start reading more in the meantime or anew hobby.

Sorry you lost your husband, that's a difficult challenge alone much less having to move.

[Against_the_current]

I'm so sorry. I know ptsd well. I can say you're a warrior and sometimes all you need to do is survive and be in the present moment. Finding little pieces of joy helps. You're not alone