Hey everyone, I hope you all had a good holiday.
So today and frankly the past two weeks have been really really crazy.
I broke up with my boyfriend of almost a year because he was no longer treating me well and I was tired of being put second and put down and ignored and tired of giving him second chances. He would know about things that bother me and then continue to do them and it just got to be too much. Things hadn’t been good for a long long time and finally I was able to see that and put my own self worth and happiness first over the fear of being alone.
One of my long time guy friends and I have started talking more and things seem to be heating up but I’m not sure where that is going yet.
The reason I am writing this post tonight is that I have become so hyper aware of my body and if one little thing changes, I get instantly anxious about and feel sick.
Like today, I had a tea and it gave me a really bad stomach ache. Not sure why but it did. And I of course assumed the absolute worst. Now, I am getting pretty sleepy as it is nearing the end of my night and I had a very late night yesterday but woke up early today. Anyways, feeling tired at the end of the day is completely normal. However, the anxious part of my brain is convinced that being tired means I’m sick or something is badly wrong with me. Which I know isn’t true
I guess basically I’m writing this to get my feelings out and hear input if anyone else ever feels the way I do