Well, I have been depressed on and off since I was a kid. I just feel like I have lost all control and wanna know how to gain the control back. I cook, I clean, and make others are good and I neglect myself. I have been married 14 years and our marriage is not the best and I am unhappy. At the beginning of my marriage, my spouse used to be really abusive towards me. He hit me on the back of my head in 2005 with a walking can and as a result of that I had a contusion. He's busted my nose. He's even tried to set my jacket on fire. He has adhd. He still has a anger problem, but instead of him hitting me, he throws things and sometimes he will pack up my things and tell me to get out or he will throw all my things out of my purse. He always tries to get his mom involved as if it's me creating problems with him. He sometimes threatens to take things away from me. I try to communicate with my husband, but he is always saying I don't want him working and I'm always fussing. We are intimate every blue moon. My 15 year old daughter is doing what she wants even after discussing with her about how I feel and others like family members step in as if I am a bad parent. My daughter walked out of school on July 13th with one of her friends and never came home until my mom got her from her friends house. I now have her in home school and I am going to counseling this week. I wanna get out of this relationship, but I don't have no support and plus I don't drive and the reason being is because I have anxiety real bad. I'm afraid something may happen if I get behind the wheel. My plan is to get my own place just me and my kids. My husband's controls everything and I am at my wits ends with everything. I have no family here. My family is two hours away.