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[Nothingnoted]

I feel like everday about dark things. Not suicidal. Having on a dakiy basessuicidal thoughts

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talk to me in chat would like to help

[Penny-dumped-Leonard]

I get dark thoughts too. I try the “stop” approach. As soon as I notice, if I notice, that they are starting to spiral I say it out loud and then say, “stop.” It helps me to stop ruminating. But they pop in a good deal. I need to remember that suicide is not a tool to solve my problems. Instead I have to get comfortable with the idea that this is … in fact … life and then accept that nature will take its course in due time. But damn do I ever struggle with it.

[Nothingnoted in reply to Penny-dumped-Leonard]

Than kyou. I seem to think of it on a daily basis lately for the past year but due to my religion it stops me because I can't do anything like that cuz I'm Catholic but there are sometimes I get really weak and I feel really bad that I always think about it all the time I have to start thinking like you do that's really hard I just wanted to thank you for your kind words and your helpful words too please take care of yourself and I hope this isn't this affect you in any way that would make you feel bad or anything or be a trigger, Gg

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[Penny-dumped-Leonard]

I understand that feeling. May I encourage you please? I’d like you to pick a best friend, therapist, doctor or a person you trust. When you have the dark thought or urge, call that person. But first make a pact with the person. Tell them that when you have these dark urges you won’t act on them until you ask them to get permission first. This way you’ll have a pause … it’ll give you time to get through the urge. Would you consider that for me please?

[Nothingnoted]

Hi Penny I promise you I will. Just gets really hard and I feel like it up for myself on Friday .r and it backfired as you reported it to my boss that I was picking on her she constantly took garbage cans and makes a lot of noise and they fully support her and my first believe that I worked with and even with ear plugs on I have PTSD from childhood trauma I know they want me out of my position and they're doing their best to get me out of there so we're making my personal life my business like really hard but I don't even like trust people anymore I just wanted to tell you thank you for your advice it's really good and I really appreciate it please do please get away from that monster you live with you do not deserve to be in a place that like that he doesn't he doesn't deserve to be in your environment you deserve better he deserve to be able to relax be at peace and happy and not fearing for your life if you have to just grab your purse and whatever the clothes you have on and just get away from that monster and if it's possible go to a shelter for women or crisis center I do see a therapist on a weekly basis and I usually call the hotline if I need someone to talk to you but when I'm at work and stuff I can't do that unfortunately I just hope things improve for you please stay safe and get away from that monster you deserve to be happy and not in that environment sending you warm hugs and peaceful vibes your friend, Gg

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[Frankie24]

Hi, sorry about what you are going through. It is difficult to have “ dark “ feelings. I experience them a lot. I am Bipolar with End Stage Renal Failure on dialysis. I hate it and think quite often about ending my life so I don’t have to keep going through dialysis to keep me alive. There are times that I out and out think of ending my own life and times where I feel like stopping dialysis whereby my life would end within a few weeks. When I have these dark moments I think of my beautiful son and my mom and how no matter how awful the pain I could not do this to them. Usually I really want to live just not like this ! Are you getting treatment. That would be the first thing I would suggest. Then take a look at your life and try to find positive things to focus on. Wishing you the best.

[Nothingnoted in reply to Frankie24]

Hi Frankie, I am seeing a therapist on a weekly bases. ive actually bedn told to stay off of sugar because i have a diabetic toe ulcer thate l has been opened sice July of last year. Every time whenever I have a hard day I eat sugar I know I shouldn't but I just feel like I don't care anymore and I know my work and my personal life has gone down the drain and I know I need to keep trying but it just gets really hard but I know I need to keep going . Thank you for being a really good friend. im glad you are here. im here for you, too. You're an inspiration to me you're very strong person I will be praying for you too thank you for listening to me

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[Frankie24 in reply to Nothingnoted]

Please be careful with the diabetes, you don’t want to end up with kidney failure. I understand about stress eating I use to be the same way. Now a days because of my kidney failure nothing taste good anymore and I don’t enjoy eating. Please take care of yourself. Thank you for the prayers and well wishes. I am here for you too. PM me if you ever want or need to !❤️

[Nothingnoted in reply to Frankie24]

Thank you, Frankie for everything. What does Pm mean?

[Frankie24 in reply to Nothingnoted]

personal message. If you click on the arrow at the top of the page with chat under it you can send a private message using the username to someone.

[Nothingnoted in reply to Frankie24]

Thank you, Frankie 🥰