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[Danzdanz123]

does anyone feel like if they just let go they will loose it or that any second of the day they are about to loose it so you are clinging on for dear life. It’s so hard and physically, emotionally and mentally painful

[IncognitoC]

I feel like I’m not in full control of myself anymore.

[Danzdanz123 in reply to IncognitoC]

It’s so bad I try to just be normal and then my brains like nope this and this giving me All sorts of bad thoughts and feelings it’s so hard

[MarileeKemp]

I feel that way every single day. I just have to try to do the things (medication, therapy, exercise) that help me keep my grip when things get bad.

[Danzdanz123 in reply to MarileeKemp]

I’m trying to do breathing techniques when it feels too much

[litethatnevergoesout]

yeah I am like way beyond my limit I’m telling myself it’s going to be ok but really I’m inside of me saying I’m not going to make it

[Danzdanz123 in reply to litethatnevergoesout]

Yeh I feel like this too and it feels awful 😢

[Arlene99]

I am feeling exactly the same & have done so for several weeks now. I think I’m getting a handle on it then bang I wake up feeling dreadful again……it is a curse of an illness & nobody understands unless they have experienced it fir themselves 🥲

[Danzdanz123 in reply to Arlene99]

Yeh it feels like you are also in a different world and you then try to create a safe bubble but it just gets smaller and smaller I hate it when even home doesn’t feel that safe, I hope you come out of it it’s truly debilitating I have barely left my bed

[Arlene99]

It is definitely a beast, sometimes I feel I have no fight left. But I do have a faith & trust that I will get through this, & hope u do too.

[Danzdanz123 in reply to Arlene99]

Oh me too and the thoughts get worse and worse and the strength to fight is so hard but you will it find it and you will get through this and so will I

[Arlene99 in reply to Danzdanz123]

Sometime I think I can’t do this anymore, but u wake up to face another day & hopefully one day things will take a turn for the better. Sending hugs to u 😉

[Danzdanz123 in reply to Arlene99]

I don’t know if you can relate but sometimes it’s difficult have your eyes open because you are so tired of it and I don’t mean in a sleep way I mean in an exhausting way

[Arlene99 in reply to Danzdanz123]

Yes.....I know that feeling too 🙄

[Danzdanz123 in reply to Arlene99]

sending hugs to you

[Nothing_but_books]

I have lost it -- completely, over and over for a long time. My life isn't mine, I'm in terror from the moment I wake in the middle of the night, until I drug myself asleep again. No respite. My heart's racing all day. I'm trembling now.

[Arlene99 in reply to Nothing_but_books]

I can totally relate to what ur saying……I wake after about an hour or so of sleep & that’s me, trying with different meds to try & get a few more hours, it’s pure torture. I love when it comes to bedtime……but if I could only get a decent nights sleep, I would b so grateful 🥹

[Nothing_but_books in reply to Arlene99]

Torture is the right word.

[Danzdanz123 in reply to Nothing_but_books]

It is torture

[Danzdanz123 in reply to Arlene99]

I feel for you because on the nights I can’t sleep it’s the worst thing ever just makes you feel so much worse

[Danzdanz123 in reply to Nothing_but_books]

It’s always there for me too and although HT sometimes is less severe it ends up going back to square 1 in no time it’s exhausting and I’m sorry you have had this experience for so long I wish I could take it away from us all. sometimes I scream because it gets too much anxiety depression derealisation panic ocd you are right it is torture. If you can manage to find a moment try listening to yogi Bryan he’s really good 😊

[Arlene99]

Do u take any meds to help u sleep??

[Danzdanz123]

I don’t take any meds I’m frightened of them I think I want control so bad I don’t want to feel drowsy or anything do you take any?

[Arlene99 in reply to Danzdanz123]

Yes, I take meds prescribed to help with sleep, but I try every other option before I take them as I know they can b addictive.

[Nothing_but_books in reply to Arlene99]

Do you mind sharing what med and how much it helps?

[Arlene99]

I have been prescribed 5mg of Zolpidem for sleep, it does help, but I try my best not to use it every night & keep it for nights that I’m extremely anxious & know that I will have difficulty falling over to sleep.

[Newby4201]

Funny, that I read this on a day when I felt like screaming to the top of my lungs! I even thought about finding a place in the woods to scream and yell! I am so full of anger, disappointment, hurt, pain, hopelessness, and disgust right now. I was standing in my basement thinking and almost screamed but I didn't want to scare my husband, grandchild and neighbors.

[Danzdanz123 in reply to Newby4201]

If you have a pillow scream into that I do a false scream sometimes. It’s honestly so hard keep going! I find journaling can help release too!

[Newby4201 in reply to Danzdanz123]

😀👍

[Danzdanz123]

Yeh so true I just scream out load sometimes or just cry it out. Well done for not yelling

[Newby4201 in reply to Danzdanz123]

😣😖I am literally holding on!

[Danzdanz123 in reply to Newby4201]

This is how it feels for me when it comes on it feels like I’m actually the only one conscious in my own little world but in a weird world and it feels like I start to believe it but I say out loud it’s not real my heart end up feel weird I get tingling all over my body then this really awful feeling it feels as though if I don’t grip onto my own reality I’m gunna loose my mind it’s the worst I’ve ever had in my whole life and I have truly had it bad before and literally thought it couldn’t get worse and it has