Hello everyone.
Long story short: I’ve been struggling with depression for 6-7 years. However, I thought my thoughts and beliefs were normal until I was diagnosed last year. I started taking anti depressants and wow – my life started to get back on track and I even felt truly happy.
I even enjoyed my first trimester in a new college despite having my ups and downs.
It was nice till it lasted. However, it is getting worse. After passing my college exams I isolated myself from everyone. I don’t feel anything. I used to cry a lot during exam prep, but not I can’t do even this. I don’t feel recovered and energetic even after 15 hours of sleep. And, to be fair, I’d rather sleep than stay awake. I don’t have negative intrusive thought like I used to, neither do I have anxiety, I just don’t feel ANYTHING. Even the things which used to wind me up don’t annoy me that much anymore. I lost hope that I would be able to experience emotions and live a normal life. I started therapy a few months ago but I don’t think it is going to help in a long run.
I know that I need to contact my psychiatrist and I will certainly do it after their annual leave is over, but now I have nothing to do but went.
Maybe I’m overthinking and it’s not depression and I’m just tired after college trimester? I just need an opinion before I talk to my doctor.