I compulsively texted my psychiatrist, he got mad cause it's late, told me i can change to pregabalin. I think i should be hospitalized to

[Against_the_current]

Avoid family. Both granmas want me and i can't take no one. Fucking family stop calling me. I have become an annoying monster because of you fucking family. Every evening mental Breakdowns. Annoying everyone. But mental hospitals in Bulgaria are like horror movies and doc isn't giving chances of hospitalizing me

[Hidden]

Hi,

What's going on right now?

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

Fortunatelly my sister called granma, i'm really scared. My condition is unstable but it's a bit better. I took my meds and drank water and my family is hopefully sleeping and i felt a bit more stable. Still im scared to say this. I'm really worried for granma. If im not distracted my mind goes there to my family darkness and all my buzzing thoughts about my exams, tech issues, Christmas issues, my other grandparents that i will leave to go to grandma and i'm the bad guy at all scenarios. I just want to be hospitalized to avoid going to Grandma's and missing going to other Grandma's and to my mom and Grandma to realise im not okay but im too worried for Grandma's health and If i get hospitalized she might worry and get sick, and my parents and future employers might discriminate me, and the hospitals here are terrible and i already annoyed doc. I hate east europe. My mind is rushing. Thank you for asking, i really need someone to check up on me

[Hidden in reply to Against_the_current]

You're welcome. First off, please remember that you cannot control what happens with and/or to others. I ruminate to the max as well, so I understand how suffering it is to do so. Try and focus on that which you can control, which right now are your exams. Take it one step at a time. I know how hard it is to do that, but please try. Have you heard about distorted thinking? This is part of CBT. Here's a webpage about them:

ananiasfoundation.org/disto...

I hope this helps!

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

Thank you! Yeah, it's always helpful for me to recognise my cognitive distortions

[Mohammad-341]

U r looking only for help from outside which won't come. Watch movies the secret and you can heal ur life. It will help

[Against_the_current in reply to Mohammad-341]

Actually yeah it can help by distracting me, calming me and showing me how the main character solves the problems in the plot

[Mohammad-341 in reply to Against_the_current]

Did u watch the secret movie

[Against_the_current in reply to Mohammad-341]

I can't find it. When i browse it gives me only a book and i don't know whether it's the same thing you reference

[God-sFavourite]

Hey! It's fine. Happens.

Don't be too harsh on yourself.

Families can be a bit over-interfering sometimes.

But that DOESN'T mean that you will end up hospitalizing yourself!

Stay where ever you are.

Just take medicines in time and take a good, un-interrupted sleep. Whosoever lives with you, tell them that you need a good amount of sleep and they should only disturb you if it is a life and death situation!

Trust me, you'll feel good. Sleep has a really healing power.

Also, about your psychiatrist, its surprising to know this behaviour of his as psychiatrists and psychologists are trained to keep calm even with the hardest of patients.

If it happens sometimes, let it go as they too are humans and can have emotional instability. However, if this behaviour of his is quite frequent, then my dear, it's my sincere advice that you must think of changing your psychiatrist as he is definitely not the right one!

[Against_the_current in reply to God-sFavourite]

Others here won't even bother. This one is the best one i can ever find and that's why i felt guilty. His new med is working and If i take my meds and eat and sleep on time and am not triggered or tired i think i can stabilize a bit

[God-sFavourite in reply to Against_the_current]

Absolutely!

[JPMcG]

try Ayurveda. Look at how you can self heal as well as how your mood swing patterns follow a clock. Ayurveda can help heal your self diet and schedule.

[Against_the_current in reply to JPMcG]

They really do follow a clock! Excellent observation! And creative idea. I need to research it as i don't know a doctor here who does it or does it for my pace

[Mohammad-341]

youtu.be/i7GmSg8vmcg(Not working as expected?)