Trying my best to finish this semester. I don't know if I can.

[Caseopia]

I have 2 more days of class in my first semester of college in 17 years. I have memory impairments from ECT and a learning disability so it's very very difficult to learn and retain information along with panic disorder. I have 2 more tests and 1 assignment and I want to give up. I know I can't. But it's so difficult not to throw the towel in. I just needed to vent. I don't have anyone around that understands.

[Gillyflower18]

you’re almost there! You can do it. Don’t give up. Each time you do something congratulate yourself and do something nice for yourself. As hard as it is you are teaching yourself ways to handle it better all the time. I’ve always had trouble with staying with assigned reading. For me my best friend was a highlighter. I found that if I went thru each paragraph and found the main point and highlighted it then took all the points and made notes out of them I got it better and cut away the superfluous junk. Also I often made flash cards which also helped a lot. Good luck!

[Caseopia in reply to Gillyflower18]

Thank you for replying. I really like your suggestion of congratulating myself when I do something. I've been working on school all through the night but I haven't given up.

[Gillyflower18 in reply to Caseopia]

Good for you. I’m glad to hear it!

[Blueruth in reply to Caseopia]

I totally get it. This year I had to get a new certification which I haven't had to do in years... and they recommend working with the product for two years but I hadn't even worked with it for a year! For tools a lot of people like Anki flash cards. I like Liquid text but ultimately it was the simple act of typing out summaries that won the day. Everyone has a different style. Next semester those are some options to try out.

[just_keep_swimming]

I can understand, there were many times in my university career I wanted to throw in the towel . Just know some days are harder than others but you are soo close to finishing that first semester don’t give up on your aspirations and even if times to get hard remind yourself what you are working towards . Not sure of your learning style but what really helped me is turning what I learned in to songs or mnemonics it was easier to visualize and helped unlock the information which I had studied when I did this .

[Caseopia in reply to just_keep_swimming]

I love how you turn what you learn to songs. I am an artist and I look at courses as art, or a game or puzzle. It helps to visualize. Due to unforseen circumstances, I failed Algebra today. My panic attacks took a hold of me and I couldn't think straight. I'm so sad and frustrated. I worked so hard. My memory is just so bad. But I can't give up. I'm afraid I will.

[just_keep_swimming in reply to Caseopia]

don’t give up and don’t let it set you back , I know you can pull through !

[ami2]

Caseopia you are doing great. I am 74 yrs old and had ECTs in 2006. My side effect was tremors but I'll thankfully take those over my previous suicidal thoughts. Had two attempts before ECT's and having them allowed me to be able to actually work on my depression/anxiety. Took lots of effort - group therapy, individual therapy, etc. Learned a lot that I've been able to draw upon all these years. My diagnosis was major depression/anxiety and will have to take medication the rest of my life. I know depression spells will hit but my goal is ... when they hit, it's further in between, they don't last as long, and I don't go as deep. That's real success for me. Take care, Caseopia, and don't hesitate to reach out to anyone or anything that can help you.👍

[Caseopia in reply to ami2]

I'm so glad to hear ECT helped you. I had mine in 2015. I was told i had 13 sessions. I don't remember. Thank you for sharing that

[ami2]

Caseopia, sorry to hear about your Algebra test. Please don't feel bad about it...we all fail sometimes. Thanks to all the others for giving you very good tips on your college journey. Keep reaching out. You may not realize it but you are helping others too. 🌻