Chronically depressed for years

[CamilaD44]

Hey everyone,

I have been chronically depressed for years. I will go through periods where I feel better than others but I know I NEED to make huge changes in my life. Tbh I have very little motivation, I have gotten used to living this way but honestly this is not living, this is not the life I want to live. I need to get back into therapy but finding a new therapist can be so damn stressful specially in the US. Who else agrees?

I know though that if I don't help myself no one can help me. At this particular moment in life my depression mostly revolves around the fact that I don't have a boyfriend. I will be 30 next year and I feel left behind. I haven't had a meaningful relationship in years and I feel its because of my depression & anxiety that I cannot connect with people.

I feel anger towards myself and I am tired of my own bs, but at the same time its so damn hard to pick myself up again and again. But realistically I guess life is about picking yourself up every day.

Does anyone have any advice? Wish you all the best, I will never give up but right now I am feeling like I am close to rock bottom.

[nonova1]

You're young yet. Theres someone out there just waiting to meet you. I'm 67 and don't have many years left. I used to like to live alone but not so much now. I think you're going to ok although it seems like so much work. You're gonna be fine.

[Raggedy-Ann]

Hi Camilla, I am in your corner. I'm 25 years older and have the same problems. My advice is to be kinder to yourself. Thirty is great. Your 20's are a wild ride and 30 is like "whew that was fun but I am glad it's done." I know you're depressed and yes finding a good therapist is like interviewing someone for a job. Ask potential therapists about their approach to therapy. Tell them what works for you. I do my best with a therapist who talks as well, I want them to give it to me straight, pass along something helpful. I am with a therapist right now who surfs the web while I talk. I am in a rural area. The boyfriend thing is tough. try to be social and it will happen in due time.