I can't stop crying. I want to d1e. Stupid mom drinking. Stupid country giving no help

[Against_the_current]

People telling me she needs help make it worse. First she refuses help. Second i scream for help and yet don't get any. People tell me If im in this crisis i should call emergency, emergency says im wasting their time. I don't blame anyone, just countries are different. Nobody's gonna care untill im dead. And people telling me she needs a partner drive me insane, psychotic. I can't bear a stepfathee. And telling me it's terrible drive me insane too. I'm sorry im like that. I pray i die in my sleep. If i can go to sleep at all.

[GlitterDaisy]

I am so sorry you aren’t finding the help/resources you need/want. After only being on this site for a few days, I see a reoccuring problem- none of us are getting the help we NEED. It may not mean the world, but hopefully it means something to you that this stranger cares about you. Hang in there and know that there’s people who care. 💜

[Against_the_current in reply to GlitterDaisy]

Thank you 😭❤️

[Starrlight]

❤️

[Starrlight]

Keep reaching out and trying to get help.

[PNIAuthor60]

My heart goes out to you this morning as it sounds as though you are treading water in despair and wondering where are the people to throw you a life preserver - I am not familiar with your country or its services so I looked it up and would suggest that maybe Al-anon would be a good resource for you - it is a support group for those of us in relationship with family members or friends who have a problem with alcohol or drinking - here is their email: [e-mail] - I found a remarkable community of people like us who were struggling with loved ones who drink and the impact of their drinking on us. They have excellent resources and hopefully you could find a meeting close to you. If not, I believe they have meetings via zoom but you could check that out.

The person who is drinking would benefit from AA (Alcoholics Anonymous) both solid groups with good people in them and lots to learn from each other.

I understand all too well your frustration with the professionals who say upsetting and nonsensical things only causes waves that you can't handle - HELP IS OUT THERE so I hope you will contact the Al-anon service in your area, at least send them an email and tell them what you are coping with - holidays are very difficult when there is a drinker in the family - your first responsibility is to yourself - I think Al-anon could be the best Christmas gift you could give yourself.

I care about you and it grieves me deeply to hear you talk about wanting to be dead. I have lost people this way and it is a devastating experience. Please reach out to Al-anon so that you can talk with people who understand your predicament. Keep coming back here to let us know how you are doing, ok?

[Against_the_current in reply to PNIAuthor60]

Thanks but she doesn't want any help. She gets upset even If i mention it

[emmi331 in reply to Against_the_current]

Alanon is not about your mother getting help. It is for YOU to get help dealing with having an alcoholic in your life. You are not alone having trouble finding government help with mental issues.

Social Services everywhere seem to be strained to the limit.

[Against_the_current in reply to emmi331]

Oh thank you. And yeah social servises are overwhelmed

[Blueruth]

Depending on others to define your self worth is a losing proposition.

[Against_the_current in reply to Blueruth]

This is a good saying

[Blueruth in reply to Against_the_current]

why do you keep doing it?

[Against_the_current in reply to Blueruth]

Lots of childhood trauma

[Isinatra]

This link will take you to Al-Anon information in your country. al-anon.org/al-anon-meeting...

[Blueruth in reply to Isinatra]

what a beautiful alphabet Bulgaria has!

[Isinatra in reply to Blueruth]

It is lovely. I did some research on Bulgaria…healthcare, government, economy, geography, history. It was interesting….

[Blueruth in reply to Isinatra]

I have not but I bet it is. Romania is a neighbor country and I had some neighbors that survived the communist regime. There is a big yearly festival about 30 miles away and I got to help in the food tent. The food is amazing. I didn’t love cabbage before then. Idk how similar they are but I bet they are close. I think you learn a lot about a place through cooking. Maybe ATC could tell us.

[Isinatra in reply to Blueruth]

gosh…I’m pulling a blank on ATC, Blueruth. Help me out. 😁

Cooking…you bet!

[Against_the_current in reply to Isinatra]

Thanks for doing such research. I appreciate it. I honestly hate how east europe turned out to be but my mental health is stopping me from being able to immigrate

[Against_the_current in reply to Blueruth]

Yeah, food here is something different tho im a really picky eater and i hate cabbage and lot of the things here. For example greek yoghurt and greek cheese are actually bulgarian. And we have a special Type of ketchup available only here. And i believe that If you take the balkan and Italy you will have all the salami invented ever and more

[Blueruth in reply to Against_the_current]

I hear ya. I’m pretty easy but if I was restricted to local food I’d be in trouble. It’s too dry and I grew up with fresh berries and shellfish. They have to be trafficked or fedexed in. That said 🌶️ peppers are available in abundance and I’m all into that!

I don’t care for Greek yogurt on its own but it does make a good sour cream substitute. Any sort of salty chip…add a little hot sauce or chili paste 😋 I didn’t know it was from the Balkans.

[Against_the_current in reply to Blueruth]

Yeah, it was. Balkan are a weird place but at least we see it. Other places are honestly terrible but their people love them and defend them evn tho they're opressing them

[Isinatra]

I believe you’re right, Snowdayze. Thanks for the rescue. 😊🤦‍♀️

[Blueruth in reply to Isinatra]

air traffic controller 😜

[Isinatra in reply to Blueruth]

😂😂