anxiety is getting the best of me

[Wildflower13]

long story short, I’ve dealt with anxiety off and on for 18 years. I had about a 9 year break in there but the last two years have been really really rough. I had about 4 months in there with some mental clarity and relief but it is all piling back up on me for about a month now.

I feel crazy, I feel like no one understands, like I’m the only one and one day I’m just going to go nuts, or die, or something awful!

I try to have a positive mindset, I do yoga, meditation, exercise when I’m able, challenge my thoughts, do counseling, I am strong in my faith and pray daily. I DONT KNOW WHAT I AM DOING WRONG.

I had to leave work today and now I’m laying in bed with crippling anxiety. I’m overwhelmed, I’m worried, I’m scared.

… it’s all so much 😔

[Wildflower13]

let me also throw in there, I have panic attacks and terrible health anxiety. Mix that with my heart palpitations and I’m done for the day once I start getting those / a panic attack. My body and mind are exhausted daily. I need a break.

[Hidden in reply to Wildflower13]

Hey! I feel your pain. My anxiety was controlled for years but now depression has crept in which is a whole different beast for me. I’m not sure why anxiety comes and goes. It’s that old “fight or flight” response that kicks in when there is no real threat around. My doctor wants me to correlate what’s going on in my life, what is different, when the anxiety comes screaming back. The thing is, I have panic attacks in a complete calm and serene environment. Like a kick in the ass to tell me to start worrying about something! I too suffer from heart palpitations. Usually every morning at 3 am. They wake me up. My doctor told me that when I feel an attack coming on to just tell it to come and get me. Kill me if you must. Because no matter how scary they are, you will not die from one. In other words, we shouldn’t give our panic attacks the attention they don’t deserve. Fear of panic attacks only feeds them more. It helps me to constantly remind myself of this. I’m thinking of you and wishing you some much needed peace of mind. 😀

[Yoyiee]

I get you! I’m sorry you’re suffering but try and remember it’s temporary! I know easier said than done. Sending love your way.

[Wildflower13 in reply to Yoyiee]

thank you so much for kind words!

[Wildflower13]

Thank you for your kinds words and yours prayers. They are appreciated more than I can say. And thank you for reminding me : this is our temporary home. Praise the Lord for that 💜

I agree, I need people that understand. I just had the idea of looking for a support group while I was laying here in bed upset - there has to be others out there like me.

Thank you again!!!

[FauxxTrot]

We have a lot in common, you aren't alone.I've heard from therapy a lot of anxiety is not being able to understand what true threats are in the modern world. Before it was see Lion, adrenaline kick in, run, escape, feel safe, adrenaline drop, anxiety decrease. I've been told that's why running gives you runners high. With current day anxiety fear your job or whatever is causing you anxiety is like a wolf in sheep's clothing. It's hard to identify and know what reaction you need to take for self preservation. Just go run or speed walk to engage the escape from lion instincts that are somewhere in there still.

Also ps I wish I could follow my own advice. I hate running

[Wildflower13 in reply to FauxxTrot]

thank you so much for your reply. I hate it for you, but it is comforting to know I am not alone.

I like your explanation of the fight or flight response. It makes sense!!

[RayannAbbey]

are you taking any meds to help?

[Wildflower13 in reply to RayannAbbey]

not currently. I haven’t in years.. the withdrawal coming off of them last time scared me so badly that I’m REALLY trying not to get back on them. Prayer, therapy, yoga, meditation, etc. is my medicine now.

[Amos1993]

You are not alone. I too deal with this. I had been good for awhile and my anxiety and depression has just reared its head up again. I too pray for peace for you and all that suffer. May your days get better

[Wildflower13 in reply to Amos1993]

thank you so much for your kind words, Amos. I sure hope you feel relief and peace very soon as well. You are not alone!