Embarrassment and Anxiety

[FauxxTrot]

I feel such a strange connection to embarrassment. I don't think there are many emotions I hate more. I made a mistake today at work, something I would consider pretty minor damage but high embarrassment. I sent an email to my boss about a client ( not exactly flattering) and accidentally cc'd the person. I wanted to die in a hole or quit my job. I'm not sure if it's being vulnerable or wrong or judgement. But if anyone feels the same or reads this and it's obvious to you let me know what you think. Maybe because it's me I can't see what's the cause and I want to understand better. I'm just starting to ruminate and overanalyze

[Hidden]

My mouth dropped when you said you CC'd the person, and then I had to laugh. I, too, am perpetually embarrassed of myself.

In fact, I have sent some emails that to this day I wish like hell I could take back, so you're not the only one who has to pull their foot out of their mouth.

I would say if your boss shows no indication of firing you, thank your lucky stars! You're in the clear!

🤗☮️❣️

[FauxxTrot in reply to Hidden]

I didn't know if I should laugh or die ha yes I sent it to them. I feel like out of body run away from everyone experience if that's a thing

[Wildflower13 in reply to FauxxTrot]

yes!!! I have these same feelings!!!

[Wildflower13]

I don’t have a for sure answer but I wanted you to know I understand. I left work this morning due to crippling anxiety. Ruminating has become my hobby. I’m literally making myself ill over work, things happening at work (like you said, nothing major but enough to make me feel unqualified, which I am not). I can hardly function. All I want to do it quit my job and find something less stressful. Embarrassment, ruminating, over analyzing, etc. I don’t know how to quit. It’s getting the best of my mind and I’m scared.

All of that to say, I understand, and I’m here for a chat anytime!

[FauxxTrot in reply to Wildflower13]

Thanks it's nice to know I'm not alone. Probably the answer is we are too hard on ourselves but I don't know how to not. If I come up with anything I'll post here for everyone because I'm sure we could all go a little easier on ourselves. I spend so much time concerned about work it's awful and I don't know why I do it

[Wildflower13 in reply to FauxxTrot]

Everything you just typed is me 100%. Work is consuming my life. And I don’t even like my job! Yes, I would like any feedback / information you find!!

[FauxxTrot in reply to Wildflower13]

I can feel a googling rabbit hole coming on