Am I The Narcissists : so lately I’ve... - Anxiety and Depre...

Anxiety and Depression Support

88,371 members82,871 posts

Am I The Narcissists

NorainNoflowers profile image

so lately I’ve been feeling very low convincing myself that I’m narcissistic and I can’t shake the guilty feeling of breaking others or if I’m a bad person !

I’m in a relationship with someone that in our first argument I told him I think he may have a bit of narcissistic behavior and the reaction was so bad It was threatening and after that day it seems like everything feel down !!! The way he started talking to me was unacceptable he was very angry , accusing me of being angry , starting things, gaslighting, being miss perfect , switching things onto me ! In the beginning it was beautiful then just as beautiful as it was it was horrible ! And I always voiced that opinion to him and he thought we were perfect but I seen the change and differences in our relationship! And I used to cry all the time at night because I couldn’t talk to him because of his reactions he made me feel I was delusional or crazy so I started thinking I was crazy and everything is my fault ! Now I’m stuck with thinking I was the reason he changed it was okay until I moved in ! I don’t know what to do at this point it’s ridiculously hard for me to leave because I feel like it’s me ! Has anyone been through this I’m okay with accepting I’m the narc to get help I just need to know

Written by
NorainNoflowers profile image
NorainNoflowers
To view profiles and participate in discussions please or .
Read more about...
12 Replies
Jland245 profile image
Jland245

narcissists unfortunately have a knack for making you feel like you are doing something wrong. I went through it. It’s tough I’m sorry you have to go through this. From my view of your post you are being the complete opposite of a Narcissist. For what it’s worth.

NorainNoflowers profile image
NorainNoflowers in reply to Jland245

How did you get through this ? Can you add me on Facebook? Desiree Wingo

Jland245 profile image
Jland245 in reply to NorainNoflowers

hey I just seen this. I actually deleted all my social media because of this person. I unfortunately got through things by getting a divorce. We were married for 10 years together for 15. It was rough but I’m starting to see some light at the end of the tunnel. She ended up using my mental health against me in court . The judge believed it so now I’ve been fighting for my two children for 8 months. Don’t let that get that far, please.

Hope things are a little better

Sabbath1 profile image
Sabbath1

I'm not a doctor or anything but I'm pretty sure a narcissist doesn't feel bad about being a narcissist so your whole post is like the opposite of a narcissist.

My advice, leave the guy. Doesn't exactly sound like a winner .

hi I want you to know if you get anything out of what I say is that fact that YOU ARE NOT THE PROBLEM LOVE!!! He is gaslighting you into thinking there is something wrong with you in hopes you will stay with him. It is normal to want to love and be loved but he is manipulating you. You are someone out their that is meant for you, you deserve the world and I’m proud of you for speaking out it takes so much strength.

NorainNoflowers profile image
NorainNoflowers in reply to Imeallytryingmybest

😭😭❤️ Thank you this means so so much to me !! Thank you so much for speaking on this everything will help me to build and grow from this !!! I’m afraid to speak about it with him ! It’s so bad to the point I think me talking about it and asking for help is apart of me being a Narc and I don’t understand how I got this bad ! But this really really helps me

designguy profile image
designguy

I agree with tryingmybest, you are being manipulated by him to make you think you are the one with the problem and the last thing he wants to admit to is being a narcissist and having done anything wrong. I've read that the definition of insanity is trying to argue with a narcissist and I believe it. It apparently is very difficult and rare for a narcissist to change so unless you want to continue to make yourself crazy it's best to sever all ties with him and move on. Know and believe that there is nothing wrong with you, he is the one that has the problem and it's good you realized who and what he was now.

Kinlay profile image
Kinlay

My sense is it is definitely him. I was married to one who was also an abusive alcoholic. They ALWAYS start out being wonderful, but once they feel they have you (for me, once we were married, for you perhaps when you moved in together?), they switch - and always blame you for their behavior. GET OUT unless he is willing to try couples therapy. This relationship will only get worse. Please read this article: healthline.com/health/menta...

NorainNoflowers profile image
NorainNoflowers in reply to Kinlay

Thank you !! I’m so sorry that you had to suffer with that ! You’re a very strong woman! Please add me on Facebook Desiree Wingo

catsrock profile image
catsrock

Mu gut reaction is - run! He is definitely a narcissist and manipulating you. My brother was like this with my sister-in-law and it was hell. He was difficult to be around for everyone and was always criticizing others and was super needy for attention. Narcissists cause so much emotional pain. I'm sorry you are in this situation.

NorainNoflowers profile image
NorainNoflowers in reply to catsrock

Did she ever find peace and her way out ?

catsrock profile image
catsrock in reply to NorainNoflowers

It's a long story, but he committed suicide because he couldn't handle that she was divorcing him even though he had been cheating on her and treating her badly for decades. Narcissists can't handle any kind of rejection or their world cracks - it's very hypocritical. She's remarried now and very happy.

You may also like...

Was he really narcissistic or was I

without any way of contact because I’m crazy !!! I wrote down our arguments, made poetry about it ,...

I cut out a narcissist

for bullying. I feel so powerful cutting her out of my life. I’m renewing my relationship...

covert narcissistic best friend

close friendship for over 20 years with a covert narcissist who has slowly torn you down but to her...

I am practicing strength And healing

try but.... I’m in a bad spot. My family mean everything to me and is now changing and it’s sad and...

I think dealing with narcissists is a big cause of mental illness.

psychologist, Dr. Ramani, is what keeps me sane in this crazy world.https://youtu.be/TN9kssb-STc