So it’s no secret that men look at other women online and in person even if they’re happy in a loving relationship. Heck, we all do it. But looking is where it stops if you’re loyal. For me I’m incredibly Insecure and struggling to build confidence and believe myself and my boyfriend in that I’m perfect and beautiful. (To him and myself).
Something happened that finally opened my eyes and it’s not like I didn’t expect it I just didn’t think of it.
I fell asleep before my boyfriend and he was next to me on his phone on Instagram I woke up and glanced to see he was about to search something and then exited out as I spoke up and I saw several pictures of gorgeous women, with perfect everything and massive assets. I called him out on it, as your Instagram feed/discover page shows stuff you look up and search. He said he hadn’t done it in months, but then that type of images wouldn’t be on there. So I proved that point and he admitted he does look up other women because they’re attractive. But nothing else. They’re to look at.
It hurt. And still does. He tells me I’m still beautiful and perfect and he loves me and would never cheat and that’s why he just looks at pictures. I asked how he’d feel if I did that for guys and i knew he wouldn’t care. He said that it doesn’t matter to him. So that sucks. Because I told him how much it hurts and he says he’ll stop but I know he won’t. I just need to accept it. He really is the most loving person, he was hurt by his ex’s in the way of cheating so he’d never wish that on anyone.
He prays for me to get better, he supports me, loves me appreciates me, everything! Our relationship is great it’s just now I’m struggling to get over the fact that he intentionally looks up other women.
Can anyone help me with this and maybe provide something so I can accept it and get through it?
It’s making me shake from fear and anxiousness.