I am really down the hole.
I have a small website I use both to publish technical content and to pretend I'm a software developer.
This website was abused by a spammer to send 680k emails on my behalf. I now owe ≈700€ to the email provider. For me, that is a lot of money.
I am disgusted and deceived. All my life I tried to be someone and it only brought me pain and problems. I think I'm resigned now to being a no-one. Spending my day watching tv and going fishing would require less effort for a similar or better outcome.
Some people on this forum made a lot of effort to help me. Thanks to them, but I do not deserve it. I give up.