lost feeling and alone

[Kbeck1991]

why do I feel so lost and alone? Why is nothing working for me? I’ve ruined every relationship I’ve ever had, my family wants nothing to do with me including my son. I cry constantly I scream and have thoughts of suicide. This has been going on for over 10 years and nothing seems to help me!

[OB73]

🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾💯💯💯❤❤❤In Due time ....it shall we all learning sometime it take longer for others than it do some ..

[MaineOtter]

I’m sorry for what you are going through right now! Life is not fair and can be extremely difficult. Please don’t give up!! We care about you. Do you have a therapist to talk to? What about talking to one of those help Lines?

Here are something’s that help me get through my crazy days: get exercise & sunshine (a warm therapy pool is great), eat healthy(roasted chicken, salad and pumpkin seeds), drink plenty of water, talk to someone you trust, get enough sleep, deep slow breathing, do something you like to do, and helping others.

Also focus on positive things, smile at people, find things to laugh about, hug someone, pet an animal, play with a child, appreciate the beauty in the world, give thanks for what you do have. Please understand me. I do so often focus on negative things that while I’m suggesting these things to you, I’m also trying to convince myself to do them! It’s so easy for me to focus and dwell on the negative, but I must stop it, I must change! We must stop it and we must change!!

I truly hope this helps and I do hope and pray you get better!! Please pray to Heavenly Father for help. He wants to hear from you and he will listen.

Hugs.

[aequitas1983]

Hey Kbeck,

I'm really sorry this is how everything has been going and feeling. As others have asked...do you do therapy with a counselor or therapist on a weekly basis? I read from your profile that medication hasn't helped and I'm sorry to hear that isn't a viable option. But perhaps talking to someone will help you answer your own questions with your own answers. I don't want to turn my response into an "about me", but I have a good job and family.....and I often feel lost and alone. And what I've learned just from my own experiences is this....perspective. Negative thinking and spin on what I think I SHOULD be doing, feeling, and thinking.....end up resulting in this lost and alone. It doesn't help that I work overnights so I miss out on a lot of what happens during the day. Regardless, I think it's a matter of perspective and trying to put a new perspective into place.

You say nothing is working for you...and I assume that's all of the typical options for mental health issues or whatever you're experiencing. Unfortunately, I think most of the answers whether it's counseling or medication....it's a lot of trial and error which can lead to A LOT of frustration. It does make us cry.....and it definitely makes us scream. I think it's totally okay for you to feel that way. You're frustrated. As for the suicide portion....I really think a therapist and a psychiatrist are worth visiting....and I know you've probably been down that road. But please keep care of yourself here. Getting your mental health back on track as much as possible is huge. Just please make sure to call the numbers available if the urge becomes more than that, please. You are absolutely worth it....and worthy of relief from everything you're dealing with.

Are you for certain about your family feeling this way or is this just what you perceive? Same with your child. I am sure your son loves you, cares for you, and wants what's best for you. I am sure the same can be said for your family. While some of us are luckier than others with family members who understand our issues, I know some are not so lucky. I hope that's not the case. I am sure they really want you to feel better....and as we all know here sometimes that takes time and patience. This all goes for relationships as well. If someone can't handle the "worst" of you, they do not deserve the best. You say you ruin them, but that can't always have been the case....don't feel like it's all your fault. And I hope that those in your life realize that. I understand that ten years of this is a long time but it seems like you are trying. Please keep trying because it is a battle to finally find the right people, the right medications, and the right support. Sometimes we don't realize we aren't so lost and alone after all.

I hope I am not coming off so preachy, I truly am wishing and hoping the best for you with everything you're dealing with. My best advice and support from my own experiences is....if you feel lost and alone....go back to your map of life and try a new path. Maybe there's a different therapist that uses different methods. Maybe a different psychiatrist uses different medications or can find a misdiagnosed issue that can be sorted out. Try a new perspective.....and if you feel that you are to blame with the issues between your family and son....there's nothing but time to fix those bridges back across to them if that's what you would like. I know I'm not telling you anything new, but please give yourself some more time, be patient with yourself, be kind to yourself. We're all here for support....so I would say fight back and find a better path for you to be on. Where you feel less lost and alone and actually see that you aren't lost and alone at all. You can do this. One day at a time...small steps. Whatever it takes at your own pace.

[compasnet]

Kristen, the only fact that YOU'RE here expressing your emotions a passionately as you are, and want them to want to be close(r) to you, to me says that it is THEM that's really loosing oit here, loosing out as in they're cutting out their opportunities to be close to a person who has deep feelings/emotions, knows the value of being close to others, of being a giving friend/family nenber, etc , etc., etc. Some might describe it as " it is their loss", and in your case, they'd be correct.🙏. God bless YOU m🙏.🫂((((KKbeKKbeck)))🫂