I’m 20, recently I’ve been dealing with a bad case of depression and it’s really brought me to a low place, I gave up doing everything and just stayed in bed for almost two months. I started therapy because of it and started taking some lithium and I’m beginning to feel better. Before I was at an 8, now I’m at a 5-6, I don’t have much suicidal thinking anymore. Now I guess I have to take responsibility for my life, but I have no idea what to do. I’ve tried college(community) twice and I dropped because of losing interest in studying and really questioning why I was even there. I’ve worked about 8 different jobs since high school and they all pretty much sucked and right now I’ve been working somewhere that I don’t like, but I’m just there because it pays okay and I’d have nothing else to do. Other than that the only thing I have going on in my life is jiujitsu training for about two years, but the other things in my life really affect how I do in training. It’s something I think I could be really good at but might just be a waste of time. I don’t know what to do with my life. I live with my parents and feel like a burden almost everyday, I hate eating things at home because they paid for it and it feels like I’m freeloading. I feel so lost. Sometimes I just want to move away somewhere and start over. I don’t really have that many friends or family here, mostly people from my gym, other than that there’s nothing holding me back. I feel frustrated, scared, worried, disappointed in myself. I’m a really hard working person and I think I’m pretty smart but if I can’t find a reason to do something then I can’t force myself. Just like school, I really tried and got pretty good grades but I just don’t care about anything I learned. I don’t know what to do.
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