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[tbaxley02]

I'm not really sure what to write or even where to start. All I know is how desperate I am to feel some sort of relief from this mental hell I've buried myself in. I feel so uncomfortable in my own skin and I feel scared of the thoughts in my brain. People will try to hype me up when I'm feeling down but none of it helps. I feel like I'm only existing to please everyone else around me, there's nothing that makes me happy or makes me feel like life is worth living. I'm just really lost and broken and I don't know what to do.

[Adamj]

I want you to know you are not alone. I too am going through something similar. You will get through this. May I ask if you have a therapist or someone you can talk to?

[tbaxley02 in reply to Adamj]

I don’t have anyone.

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[Raggedy-Ann]

Breathe, keep breathing... You are not alone. When it is that strong, find a diversion. A healthy diversion like a movie you love or pick something you've never seen so your mind can get involved in the story. Drink some water and treat yourself to something you love to eat, take in the aroma feel the good stuff it doesn't matter if it is small. This moment will pass. Just keep breathing.

[Mom2PCat]

I can relate. I am tired of hearing how good I look. No one sees that my insides are a big jumble, my head is foggy and just wants to be alone. Yes, I'm out of work for physical issues that are getting better but the anxiety and fear of everything has been with me for just going on 2 years. I'm the one that moved to the big city to family that I barely knew at 19. Now Walmart scares me to death, I haven't had my hair cut for 2 years and there are so many things that I'm missing. You are not alone. This is my first time on this board but you have us.

[PNIAuthor60]

It took a lot of courage to post what you have and that is a good start. I'm sorry that you feel buried so deeply in the mental hell as you describe it. I can only try to imagine how scary it must be. Thanks for trusting us with how you really feel.

Have you reached out to your family doctor? Are there family members that you trust enough to confide in? Feel free to reach out to any of the moderators who may be able to assist you with some needed supports.