I’m having a rough night, and anxiety is snowballing. I’m going to take a lorazepam right now but every time I do, I worry about ‘using’ - note my current bott of 30 pills is over a year old. So even that’s not a real worry. I’ve emailed my doc to refill, as to renew script for mirtazapine - that’s been over 2 years.
I hate how my body reacts to certain stressors. I’m crying! Need help!
I'm here
Thank you. Just need to know I’m not alone. Ativan made me sleepy. Then like a bolt, I wake up
I'm here
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Just jolted awake after a 10 minute nap. Gotta get up for work in 2 hours. I’m sad and anxious. Need to stop the spiraling
I read your profile. Did you have things under control and it just started up again?
Yes exactly. A new stressful situation has presented. And this is how my body reacts. The fact that I’m teary and can barely eat makes me feel like the depression is creeping back. Mirtazapine really helped last time.
That's what it sounds like. I'm so sorry you are feeling this way.
Can you reach your Dr today?
Probably not till Monday. She’s been pretty good with refills since it is so sporadic. I’ve left a note via my in line portal and will call on Monday. We’re supposed to go on a little vacation on 27th. I want to go, but am worrying about I’m leaving behind (the situation I referred to). What will be when I return, AND my husband who has a hard time watching me fall apart. RUMINATING
You are going through so much. I hope you can get yourself in a spot to be able to get away.
It is hard on the people who are watching us go through this. I understand completely.
Will work distract you? Do you feel well enough to go?
Thank you so much for talking. Yes work or anything to keep my busy helps. Games on my phone.
Ok great keep your mind busy. I'm here to talk any time
How are you feeling?
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Thank you for checking. Just wrote a new post. This morning is rough. It means so much just to know I can write my fee there!
I saw the new post after I checked in here.
I'm sorry your morning isn't going well 
I dnt take medication but maybe I should
Depends on your symptoms and needs. Are you in with an MD or therapist? Gotta start there.
All I did one day was got counseling and at the end she said I dnt know what to tell u so I stopped trying to get help
I’m sorry for that experience. If it helps, I’ve had really good, just ok, and lousy therapists. I’ve just reached out to my last provider as it’s been 3 years. Hoping to resume because she is good and it helps. Point: if you really want to try and feel better, you may want to try with someone new. Peace
Life is being extra tough right now.
So scared right now... 
Rough Time Right Now
panic attack right now
Fed up now 