Anxiety / abusive parents give you superpowers 😅

[Against_the_current]

I got back from the fest and was like getting my stuff, getting water and so. Like walking around the apartment. I felt my roommate and her boyfriend are there but didn't involved. Then said hi when they got to the common room. Then he (he's a military unit) was like "oh my God, how you appeared out of nowhere?! You should be a sniperist. Your footsteps don't make any noise. You litterary ambush" and i was like "yeah, i actually once scared the other roommate because i" appeared out of nowhere ", i guess im in stealth" 😂. I'm thinking how i did this at school but i thought it's because of introvert invisibility when ppl don't care. I actually got so used to being quiet and quick around my family members that i'm now in stealth. Plus recognise ppl from their steps. My therapist said from the moment she saw me "You don't want to take up space, trying to be lower than the grass, walking on eggshels, trying to not bother ppl" (and probably that's why i'm loud online). And another superpowers i got from my unstable parents is mind reading. Not really mind reading but being sensetive to people and their feelings and thoughts. I'm always hyper aware of my parents ' moods so normal people feel it like mind reading. My unimate was stressed and i had a headache. I was like "it hurts here, right", then pressed her shoulder and she melted. Like "How you knew my shoulders hurt". And i was like you have a headache that is making you stressed, i can feel this in your voice and expression, the headache is from stiff muscles and these muscles come from your bad sitting positions, i can litterary feel where you're hurting just from looking at you".

So not to brag (tho someone said they want to see me doing it:)) but just saying that If i fail psych college, i have a plan B of a ninja career 😂

[Hidden]

This post is so heartbreaking and relatable. I’m glad you’re seeing a therapist. And becoming a ninja sounds like a great second choice lol

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

Hah even my funny post is sad lol 😅

[FantasyLife]

hi there i kind of feel like we both r similar and our situations too from your previous posts.

well, the only difference is that i don't have the superpower like you to u to understand what other person feels but i do have a danger detector at the back of my neck when my mom is walking toward my room my heart beats faster and in a flash, i am upright studying and most times it turned out to be a decoy. so,still a noob.

And i am also kind of only passionate about psychology coz I can relate much and can work really hard, but my parents didn't accept that coz they just want me to get a job and settle.(well the reason was me to blame i couldn't focus on my career in midst of all things and wasted so much time and when i finally said it, they didn't trust me) and i really couldn't convince them coz one they say ok do it and next it is back to square one get a job first.

so, i am happy for you in studying psych-. i hope u strive to work hard and help others like us.

and i tried counselor 2 times till now 1st one treated me like a joke and 2nd after completing 5 sessions of just listening and not saying anything but a few summaries of what I said, gave a conclusion saying i am suffering from moderate depression, (like i didn't know that) i was so pissed off that i even went through that many emotions to open up to finally get some guidance to move on or change myself.

now even though i want to go for counseling i just don't want to be failed again (well not failed but no improvement)

so, i am happy that u found the right one for you.

i hope you have a wonderful present and future I am rooting for you

ALL THE BEST

FIGHTING!!

[Against_the_current in reply to FantasyLife]

Hi. I'm a bit in an overload rn and can't form cohernt sentence rn so pardon me. Maybe when u have your own job can pay for studying. I'm just inadequate for work. And my therapist since january 2021 is just listening to me but not helping