Decision making

[Lookingforhope20100]

I need to make a decision that will change my whole life...like I know what I should do but I have complex PTSD my flight or fight mode is always on do to trauma from my past. I was neglected, and raped and a bunch of other stuff and I did what I had to to survive and now because of that my fight or flight makes me scared of failure makes me scared to do a lot of things so my dilemma is I have a really good opportunity here to go to a place called job portal for they give you an apartment and they pay for your schooling and child care and everything but I'm scared to go because I'm afraid I'm going to fail and not be able to survive on my own even though I know I'll be better off on my own it's what I've wanted since I was 16 years old and yet here I am living with my parents and my grandparents so I have to choose to go to Job corps or to stay where I'm at even though I know what the right choices I just need encouragement to take it and I also have to decide if I need to check myself into a mental hospital so I can get the help I need so I can get rid of my anger and help with my bipolar the problem with that is if I go yes it will help me in the long run but at the same time I have no one to watch my daughter so I don't know what to do.

[Bentleybexley39]

Do it. Make that change. It’s hard as hell and scary and you’ll look back and wonder if you made the right call…. But if you stay where you are, you’ll drive yourself into a deeper spiral. I made a choice that changed my life 6 months ago. These past 6 months have been very hard, not going to lie. But in the long run, I know it was the right choice. I needed to grow and get out of a place holding me back. So, do it. I support you.

[Lookingforhope20100 in reply to Bentleybexley39]

thank you so much I need to get out of my situation so I may be afraid of change but I'm ready for it.