Rage

[Lookingforhope20100]

So Ive noticed for a long time actually that I have these really bad really aggressive bouts of rage. I don't know why it comes and goes if it's gone to long it comes back stronger than ever. It lives in the pit of my stomach and spreads like fire through me it makes me want to cry and makes me want to bleed the anger out I shake with rage I do everything I can to calm down to stop it but I can't stop it can't make it go away I promised myself I would never lay hands on someone when I get that way but I did I pushed my grandma I just couldn't stand her like everything she said and did fanned the fire. I'm terrified of myself and I'm terrified of being alone with my daughter like what if my anger gets directed at her I see a psychiatrist tomorrow but it can't seem to come fast enough.

[Mrspjsmom]

Sometimes we push our feelings away. In society it's frowned upon if we show anger. When we push too much of it down it erupts like a volcano. Glad you have an appointment tomorrow and hope the psychiatrist can help. Sending positive thoughts and hugs.

[lovetodance2018]

Thank you for sharing. I am sorry you are struggling with anger. Anger is a form of depression and I am glad you are seeing a therapist. In the meantime, here is a two part podcast (bit.ly/3sEzfFp) with some suggestions on how to calm down when you feel like the anger is becoming unbearable. I will be praying for you. Hugs and God Bless

[lovetodance2018]

How are you doing this week? I have been praying for you. Hugs

[Lookingforhope20100 in reply to lovetodance2018]

This week has been much better my primary care doctor put me back on my meds

[Bill181]

Might sound dumb but try getting a punching bag

[Daesin in reply to Bill181]

That’s actually not a dumb idea at all. As long as you get a little trainings on how to hit it so you don’t break your hand.