Over the edge and boiling over

[Sabbath_Star]

Hello everyone: I know I hardly ever get on here. Yet in the last couple of weeks, I have experienced a great intensifying ordeal of ridicule and constant triggering of past endeavors and boiling emotions that I feel like I am lost and need to be found rather soon. The story is that two strangers I bumped into that I crossed paths with set me off by ridiculing me of my physical appearance. At first I ignored them, they continue their ridicule, I told them to leave me alone; once, twice, but three times whereas I said I’d call the cops on them. One of those guys started to rush towards me yet I was near a place I go to for support. The incident I could’ve got over, yet the damage was done as those past endeavors of bullying and ridicule from when I was younger came back to haunt me. Since then, I have been calling my local crisis lines, have been to the ER, and so forth. I had lost my therapist after five years the day before this all happened as she retired. On the lighter side of things, I was lucky I found someone new from a different clinic as the old place I went to I became a casualty due to insurance purposes. I am fortunate I am able to talk with my new person this coming Thursday otherwise I could have been waiting at least 2-3 months to see someone. So in the interim, I still have my ups and downs where the latter I get so upset and boiling with anger when I get triggered. So overall, I wish myself luck as I get ready to talk to my new therapist this week. It’s been an emotional rollercoaster ride for me, now I pray that I return to the way matters were before all these events took place.

[Roxylox]

That is terrible. How awful for you. Don't let these bullies ruin things for you. Well done for posting.

[Sabbath_Star in reply to Roxylox]

Thanks for the concern. I am still on eggshells at this point yet I continue to wrestle my way through the state of mind I am currently in.

[Roxylox in reply to Sabbath_Star]

Nobody should be treated like that. Do keep posting. You should find plenty of support on here. Many of us on here have been wounded, if not physically, then certainally verbally and emotionally