I'm feeling extremely suicidal at the moment and don't know what to do. I have a freshly picked up prescription bottle of 30 sertraline tablets aside me. But I'm scared to do it, yet I'm also very scared to live on through this blob of misery called life. I just want to be in peace. It looks like nature is calling for my help with fertilizing. How peaceful is it to rest in a woodland aside flowering plants? As a gardener, it is my dream location to end it.