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On the edge of giving up

I'm feeling extremely suicidal at the moment and don't know what to do. I have a freshly picked up prescription bottle of 30 sertraline tablets aside me. But I'm scared to do it, yet I'm also very scared to live on through this blob of misery called life. I just want to be in peace. It looks like nature is calling for my help with fertilizing. How peaceful is it to rest in a woodland aside flowering plants? As a gardener, it is my dream location to end it.

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Call someone. Don’t do it. As scary as it seems there has to be something good in your life. Something to live for. The hope of tomorrow. Call someone now

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Smoke a joint if you can and lay on the couch and throw on a comedy laughing helps me sometimes

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As a gardener I would think that you would not want to miss the beautiful flowers as they bloom in Spring. You have spent your life nurturing these plants. I sincerely hope that you continue to live and find help from a professional counselor. We are here to support you. Please call someone to be with you now! Howard

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Hi! Please don’t do it. You van do this!!! Don’t let this stupid illness win. You are worth it! Please message me if you want somebody to talk to.

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Hi sorry to hear you are feeling so bad. I am on sertraline and I asked my doctor once if it was possible to kill yourself on them and she said no way. Well I tried anyway and all it did was send me to sleep for a few hours. That's one reason why they prescribe the newer meds these days as they are much less toxic if you do overdose on them. x

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Am exactly where you are. I look at life and I feel pain an overwhelming pain, but I won’t let this damn illness win, take it from someone who is exactly where you are feeling the same suffering you are feeling; it will end, the pain eventually will end. Please be around someone you love, please reach out for professional help. Don’t think of more than one day at a time. Slowly just one day at a time. Your life is worth so much

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Thank you everyone, but please give me a very good reason why I should keep continuing to live this life thats nothing but misery. As for the people around me, I really don't have any friends, in fact everyone betrays me. My family is the only thing I have but I'm sure they'll understand the pain I'm going through and therefore accept my decision

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Because things can change. Even six months ago I was in a terrible place. I was suicidal virtually daily for around two years. I put it down to complex grief over my late mum who was a narcissist and so caused me a lot of problems and I was grieving for all the life and growth I had missed.

We are all different and of course your reasons won't be the same but I can tell you one day I just woke up and the misery had gone. I don't know why; it was just like a switch flicking.

Another good reason is that it hurts for ever people who care about you. Even if you don't have any close family (and I don't know whether you do or not) . (Sorry just seen that you do have a family) but even if you have no apparent friends you may be underestimating how people feel about you. It can destroy other people when someone takes their life. I know as I have a friend whose son did it at the age of 22 and another friend whose twin sister did it at the age of 50. Life is never the same again for these people. They never recover.

But the main reason is for you. There is good in life and in your turn if you get all the help that you can then maybe in the future things will ease for you.

I sincerely hope you can feel a glimmer of light. Thinking of you.

Gemma XXx

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Even if that means part of the reason why I post this thread is because I have a very negative perspective in life no matter how many or what kind of good things happen? Everything is just hopeless for me, even if some situations are happy ones. Ex: It was Friday and I should be happy that the weekend is coming up and not having to work. But for some reason I don't think that way anymore. I just see it as just another boring and dull weekend to come up and only lasting 2 days and I go back to work again. And btw, it isn't exactly 'boring' from another person's perspective. I go out a lot and do a lot of outdoor activities but I don't find that a reason to be happy. So no, its not like I'm stuck in bed all weekend. So my point is.... people usually tell you to exercise or do some activities when you are depressed and I am doing all that but it does no help at all. My complete lack of motivation and hopelessness on everything simply just scratches off all the fun and joy I should be experiencing.

So you say good things can happen in life and will make me happy but right now, I just can't think that way. No matter what good things happen.

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O feel just like you, not sure if this helps. I have debts, no job a child, mortgage and I’m ill. I’m worrying if I’ll get better. My head just goes around and around. It is so hard I know

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