Worthless

[Therapist104]

I'm worthless,

I'm broken,

I'm pain-stricken,

I'm meaningless,

I cry for security,

I die for purity,

I'm screaming out for help,

But who would want to help me now?

[Hidden]

Everyone here wants to help you

[Therapist104]

Thanks. That really means a lot.

[Sueislove]

Message me if you would like to talk we are all here to help one another ❤️

[Therapist104]

Thanks. I'll be sure to keep that in mind! ❤️

[Therapist104]

And know that you can message me whenever you need!

[Against_the_current]

Same hun

[Roxylox in reply to Against_the_current]

You strike me as a person with great depth

[Against_the_current in reply to Roxylox]

Somethimes it's good to be brief, short and easy to get. I can tell i'm panicing myself right now and i can't even read long paragraphs, not write them. I sent voice messages and called compulsivly because panic makes my vision blurry. Sometimes it's easier to proceed shorter information, reading long while dissapointed for some people is like having dislexia. And here i don't even know what helps whom, i don't even know what helps me, so i just tried my best. And short statements and mantras help a lot. Sometimes i just need someone to tell me "it's okay", it's a really complex thing. And a lot people say they're tired of me, explaining to me, struggling themselves, so just a few words instead of silence or "i can't help you" are life savers. And it's always good to know you're not alone, you're not the only one suffering and others care even when they can't do much

[Roxylox in reply to Against_the_current]

That was quite a long paragraph Real_Me. I quite like reading long paragraphs, but am not great at writing them. My complaint is Bipolar. I suppose you could say Bipolar Lite. I'm pretty much ok most of the time so like trying to help people on here.Did suffer a little panic when I had Covid - not nice. I like your explanation, and indeed I do care.

[Against_the_current in reply to Roxylox]

Thanks. And i wrote this in a moment my dissosiating and blurry vision was eased. But now panic is striking again

[Against_the_current in reply to Roxylox]

Bipolar lite. I have Anxiety Prime and Anxiety Plus all anxiety disorders included in the pack. But it's not HD and my vision and mind get blurry

[Roxylox in reply to Against_the_current]

Ah, great analogies there again.You strike me as being a good writer

[Against_the_current in reply to Roxylox]

Thank you. This is probably my favourite compliment

[Therapist104]

Really? It makes me feel better to know that I'm not the only one.

[Against_the_current in reply to Therapist104]

Of course you're not the only one. You're not alone. I feel you so well dear. I'm here If needed x

[Hidden]

Do you know what's making you feel this way? Are there events in you life doing it or do you think you need to talk to a doctor? I hope you are taking steps towards healing and getting well.

[Therapist104 in reply to Hidden]

Yeah, I know what's making me feel this way. Read "My Parents Are Toxic" and it'll tell you why.

[mauv]

That is the disease telling you you are worthless. You are a child of God and you have worth. Make a list of the people who care about you. God, this group,etc. Then start a graditute list. List even 2 thinks you are greatful for. this group,recognize what doesn’t work and the ability to change one baby step at a time. We have a disease that we can’t control or cure but we learn behaviors to handle it one day at a time. We need to look at what might trigger it. What throws us into relapse. For me it is when I go into overload emotionally. I am the only one in the family that listens to my needy handicapped daughter. Also my husband gives me no compassion and uses verbal abuse. Look and see if you have any triggers. Person, situation, circumstances. We want to learn to love ourselves for who we are. We all find love here and we all can offer something to help each other. Hang in there!

[Therapist104 in reply to mauv]

Aww, thanks. I honestly believe that your husband isn't the best if he treats you that way. You'd probably be better off without him. Weather you listen to me or not, that's your choice. But just think about what I said about him.

[HerStoryUntold]

I'm here if you need to talk about it❤️.

[Roxylox]

I want to help you. I have seen you try to help others on here. We all have worth.

[bobbyrita]

you sound so wonderful and i know you are worth so much. i don't know why God gave you such a wretched family but a lot of us have or had them. i was relieved when they all died because then they could not hurt me anymore. you are so young and have so much ahead of you. i just bet you will accomplish a lot in your life and wind up being very proud of yourself. Is there anything that you enjoy a lot? When you are severely depressed it might be hard right now to think of anything. I have learned to tell myself this to will pass. You are a part of God which already makes you so important and loved and special.bobby

[Therapist104 in reply to bobbyrita]

Well, the only things I like are reading and listening to music. I also like crafting. They help me escape.

[bobbyrita]

me again. make sure you only have kind friends. you really need only one or two.i don't think you are you are ready right now to do volunteer work but you could definitely find kind people doing volunteer work.

I do think you are creative besides being very bright. Have you tried writing poetry and expressing your feelings? there a lot of free poetry contests on the web. If that is too much for now, forget. Don't pressure yourself.

bobby

[Roxylox in reply to bobbyrita]

Lovely post there bobbyrita. They say we can't choose our families. Mine is good enough, thank God. It's bad luck and not anyone's fault if they are bad. One or two can be enough. I think I have lots on here though! You all mean a lot to me, fellow warriors

[bobbyrita in reply to Roxylox]

that is so sweet and thank you so much. i love fellow warriors. great about your family. i have stopped trying to understand why i got mind. i know that being with kind people helps so very much.fondly,

bobby

[Roxylox in reply to bobbyrita]

Thank you for your lovely response bobby

[bobbyrita in reply to Roxylox]

i really appreciate that.fondly,

bobby

[Therapist104 in reply to bobbyrita]

Yes, I write poems. I'll try those contests.

[Therapist104 in reply to Therapist104]

And bobby, what you said was very nice. Thanks!

[bobbyrita in reply to Therapist104]

that is so fantastic. i am so sure you are gifted and i really think it would help you so much.please do us a favor and share your your poems. don't be scared to write ANYTHING

fondly,

bobby

[Therapist104 in reply to bobbyrita]

Okay, I'll share my poems. And I'll never be scared to write, it's another outlet for me.

[bobbyrita in reply to Therapist104]

i am so very pleased.fondly,

bobby and don't censure yourself.

[Therapist104 in reply to bobbyrita]

Well, if you're so happy, then I already posted 1 of my poems.

[bobbyrita in reply to Therapist104]

that is so wonderful. i can't find your poem. i disowned my family when i was 35. i keep on wondering why i didn't sooner.

[Therapist104 in reply to bobbyrita]

Umm, I don't know. But I've uploaded 3 now. Let me see what I can do. That's a good thing that you disowned your family.

[Therapist104 in reply to Therapist104]

Okay, so search "Slowly Dying" and filter it to "Newest." That will take you there.

[Chico49]

We are all here to help each other so feel free to message me

[Therapist104 in reply to Chico49]

I will. Thanks!

[Chico49 in reply to Therapist104]

How are you feeling today

[Therapist104 in reply to Chico49]

Fine. Just like any other day, You?

[Moonira]

I am reaching out and senfing you a big hug. Also please know you are a gifted poet....don't give up on you. As you know you are not alone in your suffering. Everyone on this site suffers from depression and/or depression and understands your pain. 🦋🌈🌻

[Therapist104 in reply to Moonira]

Thanks. I'll keep that in mind

[Roxylox]

Dark Avatar there. You have great descriptive powers. I feel a little bit of darkness creeping in this evening, maybe just overtired

[Therapist104 in reply to Roxylox]

Yes, maybe

[Lve2dance]

I did poetry when I was around that age when I was in college.. It is a great outlet.. We are all here for you 💋.. Feel free to chat with me anytime through messager

[Hidden]

There is a yes and no to this posting....Yes if you want to spiral down into the deepest hole of despair...because you stopped swimming against negative forces....and No if if you pushback and become stronger.

The life rule book never said things would be easy or hard...but they are...and when you went to school ...the teachers never bothered to tell you how to fix it...but fixit you can...

Imagine every thought you have starts as an image on the inside of your skull...like a movie...you watch the unfolding story...and believe that is the only option...the only truth....

Its not true...project a positive image and refuse to believe the conditioning bullshit some one kept telling you...you are not pretty...you are not clever...you are not worthy...these are negative negative statements...that condition you into believing a lie...

Lets turn it around...believe in yourself...believe in truth...you are worthy...you always were..stand firm...stand strong...prove to those who lied to you..lthey were wrong...you are worthy...you are strong..,each breath you take..increases your power....

Become the person you are meant to be...show the world who you really are.

[Roxylox in reply to Hidden]

Great post Jomico

[mitch404]

It’s very challenging to deal with toxic people. (I have a few at work). But we must keep our heads held up high and remain strong and proud.

[Therapist104]

That's amazing.