Hello everyone,
I just joined today in hopes that I can find comfort in community. I've been depressed for most of my life. My depression stems from body image issues and the disordered eating eating patterns/thoughts that follow it. I knew it was getting bad when I had daily suicidal thoughts.
I took control in 2021 and started therapy again and finally got on SSRI's. It's been really helpful but today, I'm relapsing a bit and have thoughts of worthlessness after working out this morning. Some days, exercise helps. Some days, it makes things worse. It can bring out feelings of being disappointed in myself for my performance which then starts to spiral into me analyzing my food choices this past weekend and it furthers my feelings of worthlessness. I feel like I'm going down a negative spiral today and came here for some community support until I can get in with my therapist for an appt.
If anyone else out there struggles with body image issues, depression, disordered eating, know that you're not alone. Thank you for reading this.