Something Weird Happened

[PeaceandWar]

Today I was crying uncontrollably and started banging my head against the steering wheel and screaming. I just couldn't find any other way to release. What lead to my actions I think was being overwhelmed. I'm a single mom. Just got hired for a SUPER good job but it requires me to stay to work until 8 and work weekends. The problem is daycare closes at 6:30 and I'm going to have to leave work at 5. I've asked my sons fathers family to help me out by picking him up from school and watching him for 3 hours but they all refused. I've been asking them the past few days and out of frustration and anger I said I wish I would've gotten an abortion and that I want to give my son away until I'm able to be financially stable and they still tell me they don't care if I become homeless they aren't watching my son. Today when they saw me crying,screaming, and banging my head. They tried to talk to me but I didn't want to talk to them because they're manipulative. I got out the car and just started walking. I was walking for maybe an hour and when I went back to their house. The grandmother made a group chat saying I dropped my son off at her doorstep and her daughter said I don't want to be a mom. My child's father was in the chat and said I want to give my son away everytime I get his back child support that the IRS takes from his income tax. They all were talking about me so bad. They said the worst things about me. I don't want to give my son away. I just want to work so that I can provide for us but I don't have anyone to help me do that so I can become financially stable. This job opportunity can give me financial freedom. I won't have to stress or worry about bills and I've explained that to them. I want to run away from it all but I can't bring myself to leave my baby.

[Dance2live]

Don’t leave your baby. See yourself from your baby’s perspective- you are everything to him or her. Your baby loves your unconditionally, so does Gd. Can you talk to your new boss? It’s better to negotiate to work fewer hours and have a bit less money. When ppl say bad bad things about you, they are really talking about themselves.

[Blueruth]

This country s**ks for single parents. I am so sorry. I can see you do not want to give away your kid. it makes me very angry too. Obviously that family isn't healthy. Tried to look up "help for working moms" and ironically nothing seemed to be about enabling moms to make money! I did google "working mom network" and found a few groups out there including one called HeyMama that could be promising. There is also a group on LinkedIn. That would be more national but a good way to network to meet a local group and maybe you could to an exchange. Hope those are some ideas.

[PeaceandWar in reply to Blueruth]

Thank you

[NeuroSeeker]

I don't have children, but as a woman who helped raise a godson I am so sorry you do not have a support network to help you. Raising children isn't supposed to be a solitary activity.

Do you have friends you trust who can split up the caring of you baby? Or maybe try calling a local social services agency to see if there are resources for women in your position.

I applaud you. The father's family sucks,so I wouldn't ask again... Who knows what kind of trash they will feed your child's developing mind?

I wish I could help you. You're the exact reason why we need social safety nets, to help people pull themselves up. You can't do that by levitation.