I figured it out. How I have so much pent up anger. I don't know how but I turn my sadness into anger. I guess it is easier to let out I don't know. I just got emotional and decided to put my headphones in, crank it up as high as I can and lay face down on my bed. And I realized that when I got sad I turned it into anger and gritted my teeth together. Than dad came to get me for dinner and I was a complete BITCH to him but he was just laughing and throwing pillows at me like I was 5. He was even playing around with me... And after he left, I ended up putting a different pair of clothes on and took a much need walk knowing that it is 8 o'clock and it was getting dark. I came back at around 9 and ate something and had a bottle of water. Than a little bit ago I accidently cut my thumb but instead of taking care of it I just watched bleed. I eventually took care of it. What is wrong with me? I just sat there watching bleed and drip into the running water. I mean who does that? What kind of person am I?