No friends

[dutchgirl71]

Nobody likes me at work….and I don’t care. I used to have friends…and I used to care. I am mentally and emotionally drained. I don’t mean to be a jerk….this is not the real me… I wish someone at my work would ask me if I’m ok…

[WilliamTheFemboy26]

Hi I wish I could help but if it makes a difference I’m here for you so you can lean on me🥺

[WilliamTheFemboy26]

I know I’m pretty young but I still can get you’re going through hard times.

[Joshgw]

I feel for you. I have very few friends and I'm so exhausted and emotionally drained that I just don't keep in touch. I wished they asked me if I'm doing OK too. They know about my illness. But I do care, I just can't do anything about it.

[car67]

I’m sure people do like you, maybe because you feel so low that you think they don’t.? Sometimes it’s really difficult to understand someone’s condition and rather than be opened about it and ask respectful questions they probably choose to ignore it. Ignorance on their part. I have quite bad epilepsy and some work people will ask me how I feel when I have had seizures and been off and some staff avoid me. I did actually approach the staff who do their best to avoid me and said if they ever needed to know how I felt after a seizure or what epilepsy is , to not to be afraid of asking me as epilepsy is not contagious! I can assure you they were the ones left embarrassed as they they tried to worm out of the conversation ! Don't be down, or let them win , we like you and you can open up as much as you like here as we care and respect each other.

[dutchgirl71 in reply to car67]

Thanks for your response. You are probably right. I present myself as stand off-ish because I am struggling with my OCD/anxiety. I suppose a smile on my face could go a long way. Fake it till you make it I suppose!!

[paperpencil]

I know how you feel. It's like sitting in the back of a theater and the movie that's playing is your life. You want more than anything for the main character to be more engaged and reach out to people but it never seems to happen. Or even if you do start having a good day, fear kicks in because it's like you know you can't make it last. It just ends up being easier to push people away.

[dutchgirl71 in reply to paperpencil]

Well said! The idea that it’s easier to push people away is spot on…

[Mijmijkey74]

Are you really a Dutch girl? Out of curiosity only is why I ask. Or you wishing you were a Dutch girl/woman/lady/female?As for your comments I get what you are saying in them, and feel/behave like very similar myself. The problem that I've always encountered is that despite previously having lots of friends. They were mostly not solid friends. They claimed to like me, love me, care, but when I needed them they would either not be around suddenly or simply turn on me nastily. Yet I was there for them when they needed support, a friend who genuinely cared and listened. Now I have hardly any friends in this world. I see none of the few remainders, the others long gone and are completely up themselves. I'm not like them, I'm not like most people. I see things differently and find most people to be looking for problems, small and very narrow minded, backwards, snooty, unimaginative, repressive and po faced. Miserable spiteful egotistical up themselves s*ds! I watch them going on and on about the same things all the time, and they are dull minded individuals who think themselves smart and intelligent, but they aren't, they are backwards and inbred! They think they know it all, yet have never travelled and lived and worked abroad and they are set in their narrow minded ways quite anally so that they are predictable and sound like they have been programed. They can only see in front of them, and can't contemplate stepping off their mundane paths to truly look around and look up. Repressive and set in their unblinking ways incapable of being nice, incapable of just relaxing, chatting openly without seeking to find faults. They just can't be honest, they live life with greater than thou attitudes yet have never left their home counties or countries to open up their small minds and get rid of the chips on their shoulders, the rods down their backs, and their wax like faces always scowling looking for faults in others words to start up arguments or problems. They don't see or hear themselves. I steer clear as far to many people now world over are like that or very similarly like that. I am a spectator of their imbecilic attitudes, words, speech, behaviour and disliking humanity more and more by the day. Phony flaky fake arrogant up themselves people just playing games, nothing genuine in their hearts or brains, they speak highly of themselves as if they are perfect and they truly believe they are superior to all others and always right. Yet all they are is arrogant, selfish, self centred, egotistical, greedy materialistic spiteful cold programmed repetitive human looking droids. They don't stop and look around and see the beauty in life and this planet, in the sky, in the clouds, in a rain drop, snowflake, in a flower, the sun, in the stars or the moon, in leaves, petals, a bumble bee, butterfly, the sounds, smells and colours around them, in crashing waves, the squawk of seagulls, the chirping of birds, the sound of a distant train or church bell. They are only interested in what materialistic things they can get. They go on holiday, do they integrate and actually see and smell and feel what is around them? No, they take all that attitude and behaviour on holiday with them and behave exactly the same as they do at home and see nothing. Their holiday photos will consist of bars, sun loungers, hotel rooms, copious amounts of alcohol photos and drunken videos taken of them planking or doing something tiktok and lots of screeching, swearing, to small cheap old fashioned clothing in faded colours. Uncultured, uncivilised, arguing and shouting or just looking frumpy pasty lobster coloured and blank in the face, empty eyes of humanity, just bitterness and hate and expecting to carry on just as they do every other day. Only difference being is that they are on holiday and behave like completely selfish trips just as they do at home.

[Mijmijkey74]

Even if someone at your worked asked you if you are ok would it be sincere from them? I doubt it if they are the ignorant pompous up themselves ignorant types already who don't like people, yet probably have no answer as to why they don't like or why they hate. I personally wouldn't want any type of their phony flakiness directed at me. Why do you care about wanting to be acknowledge in some way by such ignorant false flaky phony egotistical rude selfish self centred individuals?