feeling empty

[drummerboy1]

feeling empty and tearing up alot lately.im agoraphobic but christ took my 20 years of daily panic attacks and just about erased them from my life,but not quite..my favorite uncle just passed saturday at 90 yrs of a good life,but made me reflect that my mom will be 90 in april and i dont know if i will handle losing her.she has been my rock for the past 20 years of my mental health life......i will have no one to call daily just to hear her voice and try to make her feel good and not complain about how close to the edge I have been the last few months......i dont want to put that pressure or worry on her,she says she prays for me everyday which i didnt know....i know folks that dont have mental health issues are now knowing how alot of us feel everyday regardless of covid or not.i feel bad for them as this wil break some of them which will not be a good thing for that family..25 million americans are under real duress for maybe the 1st time in their life and we should pray 4 them all..we will hit 1 million covid deaths very soon here in america and that is not acceptable......i wish you all a good day/week/month/life...see you guys around.......DS.........................

[XoxoFaith]

Hi sorry to hear about your uncle and that is something I fear too loosing my mom or dad I don’t know either if I can go through that it’s my daily fear but then I think nobody has life garrentead we can go before them so that why I just try to live day by day but you not alone

[Blueruth]

My mother is 89. I had to mentally prepare for her to go in December. She didn't and she was able to go back to assisted living. I understand how you must feel. I was able to talk to her about death. Most of the people in her circle are gone. I think it is comforting to know that she is at peace with it and any time left is time she will make the best of as much as she can.

[drummerboy1 in reply to Blueruth]

thank you to the responders to my post today.we are all on edge or further.I believe in jesus christ and the Father named GOD,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,DS

[Hollick]

Hi drummer, your post really touched me..I would imagine being agoraphobic shrinks your world down, glad to hear your panic attacks has diminished..try not to think about your mother's demise, it won't change anything in the end, death is inevitable and strikes all of us at different times in our lives, its not something we can escape, nodody is unscathed unfortunately..I'm sorry for the passing of your uncle..I've lost both my parents, and there's not a day I don't miss or think about them, it was very difficult to lose them both to cancer..I know they wouldn't want me to be sad and mourn their loss for more than I've done, just feel empty at times..covid has affected many negatively, will we ever have a day to reflect back on, and look at the hardship many of us endured during this time..its been al ong two years, and we've all felt it in one way or another..take care drummer, try not to overthink..

[drummerboy1 in reply to Hollick]

THANKS FOR ALL THE POSTS TO MY POST!!!!!///////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// DS

[AdamFCastillo31]

Hi, sorry to hear about your loss, We all have someone in our life who is suffering. I have a very close person( can't tell his relationship) who is suffering from lethal health issues which can't be cured and his condition is getting worse day by day, so we are mentally prepared for the coming time. We all know what's going to happen. The saddest thing/feeling is we cannot help him. So yeah I can understand your pain and suffering.

All I can do is pray for him( HIS BETTER HEALTH).

[catch_the_music]

Hello there. Sorry to hear about the passing of your uncle and your concerns for your mom. Family is so great to have around and we miss them when they depart. No one can ever completely fill their place in our lives. When my family members passed I had to seek out things that encouraged me. I found encouraging passages in the Bible (Psalm 23 and other passages). I also listen to Christian radio - stations like KLOVE to hear uplifting music. Prayer ministers are another good source of Hope and Healing - having people pray over my concerns. I hope you can be Blessed by these things as well. Prayers for you!

[drummerboy1 in reply to catch_the_music]

thank you for your words///////////////////////