Being overreactive or just being normal?

[Itsjust]

You know when you are told by anyone in society that also struggles and also hides a lot of its feelings, that you are just being too sensitive? Or when you like someone, like you are liking that person too soon? Or when you are angry, that you should be more rational and not care? When someone hurts you, that you should leave it behind?

There is nothing wrong with advises.. but the problem is when they turn out to be your inner voices.. and they stop you from being a spontaneous self...

You know we all seem like we want to be free again, from hurt, from the bondage to a life of pain within us, but aren't we ourselves holding us hostage for not allowing the true reactions of pain, happiness, anger, confusion, emerge?

And isn't anxiety a process of overthinking your decisions, the world, others, and being fearful of what might come? What do we fear? Is it because we are not living that we fear life?

What about depression.. the tiredness of not being seen, not being someone worth to live.. is it because in some way, we lost who we really are?

I've been thinking a lot about this and about spontaneous reactions, and the way we hold our emotions like we can't show them, and we have all these theories about emotional intelligence, and how to respond to people, and we have all these gurus, and spiritual teachings, but for me... honestly... it gets to intellectual avoidance.. because we say we can't do things like this or that, and when we have emotions, we have an immediate social response an adequate response to that.. like we bypass the immediate radiant human expression... we stopped shining because we started being fake.. and i don't know what is wrong, if it's because social media, and you want to look good, or showing that you are so calm and because of it you win.. and nowadays we get attached so easily and detached so fast (apparently), because deep down we miss connection.. we miss the truth, we miss being ourselves, and we tend to be only ourselves with people that we have a guarantee that will stick around, because we are so fragile, and scared, and deep down very lonely..

#just some thoughts

#reflections