I dont know, i just want to end this all

[Chris1307]

I’m 20 year old, i live in a family where fights are a daily thing, my dad is an orthodox person, and my mom is always ready for fights, from past 20 years i have lived in a fear, my parents always try to find a reason to fight, and most of the time they consider me as the reason, its almost everyday that my mom tells me to go somewhere and die, everytime my parents have fight there are weeks if not months of silences, no body speaks to each other, making me feel that is all because of me and i should go somewhere and die, maybe my existence is of no worth, i carry of lot of mental burden

My childhood has passed by trying to stay out of house as much as possible, whenever i used to get injured due to some fall or anything, i was beaten by my dad for just getting injured, he used to make me eat the same food every day and once i tried to speak up, he threw a metal bowl on my face, once i hid the food inside my pocket and tried to throw it outside and i was caught, my dad pushed me down the stares, he used to hit me evry other day, i used to think things might get better in future, but i cannot take this anymore

[hypercat54]

This is awful and you shouldn't be treated like this. You need to get out from there now and not look back. Do you have anywhere else to go? More family or friends? Leave.

[Rosepetal60]

I’m amazed you have stayed in this house for so long. If you live in the U.K. there are Hostels where you can apply to live. YMCA springs to mind or get in touch with CAB, they might be able to help. Have you any relations you could live with? Start planning now, how it’s going to be. Think about what you will take with you. So that when the opportunity comes you will be ready for a better life. Good Luck

[Hidden]

Hello

This is abuse on every level and so sad you have and still are suffering at the hands of the people that should be protecting you not abusing you

Know none of this is your fault at all and that they are the one's with a huge problem they are really sick

I think so often I want out of this for different anxiety reasons but deep down I just want help and you need help because there is a life that you need to live and will have so much to offer in this world you just don't have the answers yet how to break away from this dreadful abuse

I also think you should get out if possible even if you have to go to a shelter till you find somewhere else because anywhere is better than where you are now

They want reporting to !

Don't give up , try to get away from them and slowly build a life you deserve surrounded by people that care x

[Shnookie]

If U live in U.S., please call Suicide Prevention Hotline - 800-273-8255They R very supportive and understanding.

The others R right U need to get out of the house. I’m here 4 U.

Hugs 🤗 Shnookie

[Shnookie]

If U live in U.S., please call Suicide Prevention Hotline - 800-273-8255They R very supportive and understanding.

The others R right U need to get out of the house. I’m here 4 U.

Hugs 🤗 Shnookie

[Shnookie]

If U live in U.S., please call Suicide Prevention Hotline - 800-273-8255They R very supportive and understanding.

The others R right U need to get out of the house. I’m here 4 U.

Hugs 🤗 Shnookie

[b1b1b1]

I can only echo what everyone else has said. You need to leave. It is lucky that you are 20, so you are no longer a small child with no options. Speak to social workers near where you live. They are trained to handle difficult situations and can give you advice on how to proceed. If necessary go to the police. You do not have to tolerate physical assault and abuse.

Above all, quietly make a plan to leave. When you leave go quietly and do not tell your parents where you are. x

[Nina2016]

Oh my dear friend you are in an abusive family and I believe you require professional help immediately! One option is to go to the authorities if possible. If you are over 18 - find a way to move out and rent a place. Get whatever job you have to to leave. Not safe and not okay for you! Go to abuse shelter. Look up domestic violence hotline. Pack a safety bag so if you have to run you are ready with basics like ID, cell phone, basic hygiene supplies, extra clothes and cash. God bless you and please get safe.

[Zhangliqun]

Do you have work? Do you have a friend you can stay with?

[Arymretep]

You have to get away, you are being abused, are you in the U.K. if so ring the Samaritans and tell them what you are going through , you are an adult, you shouldn’t be treated like this, good luck, we’re all here if you need to talk

[Midori]

Is there no way you can get away, because you are being seriously abused in that household. You do not have to tolerate that treatment from anyone, least of all family!

Are you in the UK, if do there are places you can go, even to the police. They would be able to help, and advise.

cheers. Midori

[HisDaughter]

Dear Chris,

I am very sorry about your suffering! It is very amazing to me that your two parents have mistreated you so much and told you very horrible things! I would like that you have the reassurance that none of the problems your two parents have between them or with you are in any way your fault. God gave your parents a precious gift when you were born. God created you and it was supposed to be a big blessing for your parents. You are a young adult now and you are still a valuable and precious human being whom the great God of the universe created. I hope that you'll seek help and that you will never take your life. May God bless you so much! May God fill your heart with happiness and hope! May God live in your heart!