Somethings changed

[Daz2310]

I now find my self not caring , stressing , worrying about anything as if I’ve hit the f*ck it button and I don’t no if that’s a good thing or not… only thing I no worry about is the fact I’m no longer worrying or bothered by out … strange let’s see how it pans out !

[Hidden]

It is vital that you realise you are very important person and worth it. Charity or self love you give yourself means everything. You will pass this really tough times give yourself credit. You are amazing

[Daz2310 in reply to Hidden]

Wow that was really nice (heart warming ) thank you so much you are amazing and kind x

[Hidden in reply to Daz2310]

Hello my self I reach a all time low then suddenly I feel.as you have said I think.its a safety mechanism that kicks in our guidian angel or something to stop us going under, it's like when someone dies you go into a kind of denyal someone told me as the mind can't cope hope things improve for you 🤗

[AnxiousCanadianChic]

I have gotten to that point before too which felt very weird as I worry about everything. For me it passed and I think in my case it was sort of a “rock bottom”.

Mine occurred after my mom died and I honestly didn’t care if I lived or died. before she died I was a hypochondriac and since her death it went away as I think I was more worried about me dying and how she would have to go through that than scared of dying myself.

My “phase” of just not caring about anything lasted a few good months.

[Midori]

Yes, it happened to me too, but don't worry about it or you'll set yourself off again.

Not worrying too much is a good sign, but don't become uncaring of your nearest and dearest.

Cheers, Midori

[Pglady28025]

I too have experienced this. It has been since the pandemic happened, but not at the present. Not sure of all of your stressors- but I just found myself so broken, so sad, so not in control of anything at all….and one day I just said *f@$k it”. All of it. I don’t care- I don’t want to know -I can’t hear one more bad thing. I think it’s ok - for a short time - to have these feelings, as long as when it really matters, you’re still a compassionate human to those that need it. But I wouldn’t let it go for more than a few weeks. I hope this finds you well

[The_Color_Blue]

The answer to "is this a good thing or a bad thing?" is yes. The place you are describing is often called "numb;" it is a survival mechanism. Your mind has shut down its feeling mechanisms in an effort to protect you from pain (defined as feelings of sadness, anger, overwhelmed, frustration, etc.). This is a good thing; it is what your brain is designed to do - protect you and keep you moving forward. This will allow you to get through life in the short term.

But this isn't a permanent place. Feelings that aren't felt don't go away. They stay with you. Eventually your brain will lose it's ability to repress them and they will begin to emerge in some way (the way they emerge is very individualized and depends on a number of other things). I imagine this is something like trying to hold corks under water with your hands - except, over time, the number of corks multiply and the number of fingers you have available dwindle. You may either seek out these hidden pieces of yourself and try to deal with them in the present, or you can wait until they emerge on their own (often with a vengeance) and try to navigate your way through their whims.

Whatever you decide, please treat these places within yourself - the one that seeks to protect you from pain and the ones unwilling to feel that pain - with the greatest of compassion. They are doing what they were designed to do, and they will require healing. Imagine them as you would a friend or loved one, coming to you from a place of hurt, uncertainty, and fear. Speak kindly. You have great intellect and profound strength in that brain if it is capable of treating you in this way, but it makes you susceptible to being overly critical of yourself. It can find ways of using some expertly circular "logic" to talk you into darkness. It's a crafty little bugger in that way.

But you are your own light in that darkness. You have a good in you - the same good that speaks so kindly to others on this site. That good is your light. Nurture it and let it nurture you. You are worth the work it will take to heal yourself. You are worth the same kindness and compassion you show to others. Your spirit and strength is valuable beyond measure and stands to make contributions and connections that you cannot yet fathom. Remember that you are destined for peace and joy. fulfillment and empathy. Remember that you deserve these things - from the world - and from yourself.