Hello.. I joined this 5 minutes ago, as a promise to my partner to get some help. He lifted me off of the ground and told me he can't keep doing this.. my relationship rides on this.. which might sound horrible on his side but I understand it.. I've put him through so much and I'm shocked he's lasted the 2 years with me that he has. He's had so many chances to walk away from me and every time he's got close I've told him I'll get help and begged him to stay.
THIS TIME I am getting help, I saw the look in his eyes when he told me he didn't want to do this anymore and I realise I'm not just ruining my relationship. I'm ruining relationships with my friends, my family and myself.
I am diagnosed with depression and anxiety, I'm sure a lot of you know how awful it is to be battling both of them. One of them making you worry about everything and one of them telling you why worry when you can just give up.
I don't know what options I have in terms of getting help but I am open to any and all suggestions. For his sake, for our sake and for my sake. I am so desperate for help.