Hurting

[Carolsos]

I woke up this morning around 3 an hour earlier than normal feeling very sad, crying, with thoughts to hurt myself! I have not had these thoughts so strong in years, I have had them, but normally thoughts of my granddaughter keep them at bay. But this morning nothing could stop me, I just could not stop crying and feeling very sorry for myself. I have no reason to feel like this but it maybe is a bit off stress. I am at present got a grievance at work against someone. I think it's maybe all getting to me. I went to work but could not stop getting upset and just crying. I have had to do some online work for my job and it was so hard I could not do it and it has been mega stressing me out. I eventually spoke to my manager to see if she could help me and then promptly burst into tears! I felt so annoyed at myself for losing control. Thanks for listening.

[Soccer_dog]

I can’t imagine how painful this is for you, but I would like to try to understand,’you should be grateful for having a good life,and be hopeful, Once you choose hope, anything is Possible - Hope is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops - at all.

[Blue_81]

Hey Carolsos. It takes alot to show up at work specially when you are dealing with pain. You are a strong person. Hope everything is better now. Keep your granddaughter in your thoughts to make you feel happy to get you through the day.

[MaineOtter]

Dear CarolsosI’m so sorry for what you are going through!

Don’t be upset at yourself, everyone makes mistakes and everybody needs help! Please don’t hurt yourself!

Try to focus on all the good things in life, like your family- granddaughter. Find something you like doing and do it. Maybe a walk or swim. Do you or someone you know have a cat or do? Spend sometime with a pet they give unconditional love and can be very comforting. Also pray to Heavenly Father, ask for help and talk to him. He loves you!

I’m giving you lots of Otter hugs…

[Hollick in reply to MaineOtter]

What are otter hugs..thx

[Daveacr1959]

Sometimes life can make us say, stop the world I want to get off . I have never had it happen until my life changing surgery in my profile. Things that help me are 6-8 hours of sleep each night. I start each morning with the Wim Hof guided breathing exercises free on you tube. It’s all intense mouth breathing not relaxed nose breathing. It’s kind of like a little work out. I do it 2-3 times daily if I’m stressed. Then 30-60 minutes of daily cardio exercise to produce endorphins or seratonin we lack. Here is the game changer and you need dr ok for it . A 5 minute pure cold shower daily. Again with lots of deep mouth breathing to not panic in the cold. It sounds like you should see your dr too maybe medicine? Or counseling? Your going to be fine grandpa, you are just in a rough patch . I talk to a god Of my own understanding, like my friend or father too.