My family had a field day headed by my mother when i divorced my wife and resigned as director of equestrian studies. Family called me a coward and so forth.........long story..........my mother (not all women by any means) is a powerful titan of women liberated women .........an army of very very driven very capable women where men are wise to keep low profile..........
men are always the cause and always wrong - (to her and my sisters-
not ***** all women.......just that group- want to be clear about that)
after 8 years of trying ot get my son going and off to his future..........
they are finally hearing the light of my point of view and now after years of being the bad guy - and dropped by all friends.
supoorted only by here and dolphin and LC and others keepoing me going
my mother been very manipuatliave seding me messages through the email system
finally found a solution_ blocked her and my family on the email
total relief...........
now i have privacy and space to be with my community
debated/ whether to mention u........see it many ways as u know...thanks for not being mad.......used to sticking up for nurses and getting creamed..........can only guess why and am v careful and someone defeated now..........
at least u know i have done tons of research, merited comments not whatever others seem to think.
reminds me of the vietnam nurses.........how defeating things must have been........rewarding but heart breaking rewarding to try to comfort the maimed and hurting.......the lost and innocent......seeing the innocent so hurt be it vietnam iraq or wherever u did ur ER....same diff.........such mixed bag........and yet.......cant stop war or car wrecks or tragedies.........no one to listen with out saying
she just wants attetnion
she just wants rewards
she jujst want praise
no............her buckets are overflowring with successss and sadnesses poured in after countless countels hours and years
but who to relate..............alone in world but to someone whose been there to a degree and why i studied the vietnam nurses and read their testaments........
glad they were there but like the men (and women) sad........
too bad more patients couldnt come back and
u see them not when maimed and hurting
but
what a difference if they came back when healed
see my thereoy..........u sawa them at our worst but
never in in recovery
no statemetns or testmamonials
if but for her..........id never be walking
now see me
if but for her.........my father woldnt have died alone
if but her......my sister woulntl have had anyone comfort her she was soo scared and told me how an angel held her hand
et c
et
that to me.............is part of the problem
u all see one view..........all true
but never get to see the bloom of your poateints u saved
u will .............when u cross over............they all will be waiting for u
u believed in me when i was having a stroke ......u never let my hand go...
etc etc
what about the other ...........side u guys never hear...
as patients ............thats our failing
and as a system that rejects our testamonails
if but for her..............i wold have been alone with my agony
if but her.............i would have had to face months of PT adn the bike
first........u welcomesecond- the respect isnt charity isnt pity it from hours of study and realizing the emotional investment
third- its killing the soul of our cream.....(dwell on this word)
our cream.......is getting destroyed and wonded for their nature and then cast aside............as patient we are also the witnesses and recievers...........werent in the postion to tell u what a diferentce and cant come back
fourht- only u dont get mad and hear.....this i righteous justice........for the cream...........not for looks ..........peop;le who kill themselves for patients..........thats not charity.........thats earned ..........i wont go to my grave and face my maker........well i tried god but was too afraid to tell dolphin the truth.........he woudl say..........with dolphin? first she deserving .......second with dolphin u can take the risk ...go back tell her........let the chips fall where they may-- she wont eat u................she earned it and we owe to her to give her the right picture.........so her soul can be at peace.........lke the nam nurses..........they greive because they cant stop the war and the innocnence from
a tribute not weakness...........up to u to go back and give her the other persp;ective (i made a vow to god for my life on a mtn...only u i could tell- promised to support earned nursing no matter what i had to endure in return for being alive......was a sacred vow til...........now i can take that risk.)
in reply to
the cream- absorbs all the pain all the suffering, does al lthey can............and leave................never seeing the crop germinate and bloom.........thats not right and fair..........
im here............to tell u or remind u............all those that did make it or transitioned through u
and higher authorites than man............look down with gracoius thoughts for those who gave all to comfort and give mercy and do their jobs and nurse nurse the souls fo nurses as well as technical..........i lakc the words..........think u get it....or hear it......
all your patinets will embrace u eventually all waiting to thank u and know u tried and tied to give u all and then some and protect their souls and dignities...........we know.............we know....
tragic that maternity wards jammed with photos........
but not others?
if i had my way............be the same but we just cause trouble.....
if i had my way.............and the money............all the familes of the people u touched............would come to thank u like the mong in grand torino.........screw the mhs sysem and their stupid rules............
all the familes..........come to say thank u...........mobs........would help tiheir closure too.............
I didn't block anyone until a few years ago when I blocked my brother. But I can relate because my mother would drop micro aggressions on the way she felt I should live my life. So I didn't call very often. She still drops those hints but there is only so much time left and I learned to brush it off even if still hurts.I am not defending your mother because I obviously don't know her and mothers are always challenging. But I do think women are accused of thinking all men are wrong when what they are looking for is allies ... who do exist. The problem is when you are in a certain position in society (that you did not necessarily choose), you do not see that the world is different for another group... through no fault of your own. That is true of most groups... like it takes effort to realize the challenges and also advantages of being deaf for example. We think we understand the challenges but we don't until we really spend time learning. So then there are people who form their own groups within the deaf community. They come across as insular or impatient but that is not what it is at all.
Good for you, Brig. No one, not even family, has the right to judge and criticize our choices in life. We don't need toxic people in our lives. It's great that you took action to look after yourself and your needs, and did what is right for you. As you say, you now have the space and opportunity to be yourself.
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