miss my wife

7 years post divorce... after the college can only find menial barn cleaning et...living off the grid past 7 years ...who is going to want a guy like that and ur just the stall cleaner to the people in the barn even though u have trained to higher level and coached for 40 years- like they now or believe that.....gets a tad...mmm lonely> So I befriended a mature woman in kenya some time ago.......now we are very deep into our relationship- we assume we are married...she was surviving in a slum in kenya washing clothes by hand...shivering all night for 4 years.....under a sheet, taking cold water bathes...no plumbing- u get the partial picture....she only thinks of me and others.....long story short....the kindest most loving woman.....(my ex was a sdreamer and not very nice at all....no affection for 15 years.....who knows...takes two) ..anyway this woman is sooo warm soo kind....god a tea bag is a gift to her.....i send her most of my income each month to get her to better place....thankfully and set her up in her cooking business but at least clothes and food.....u know...eat once a week........she likes to snuggle which is a mind blwer to me....huh? dream....dream of holding someone that likes to be held( v a lot fo mean women......certainly not all women but the ones I worked wth hate men) .....soooooo dream woman........course..will be two to three years til I can get her here......uugghghghg igget soo attachedna dlvoeher soooo much.........the circle helps me cope.........uhgghgh .........we want the same thing the emotional closeness......the communication and the soul to soulness.......uggh so bonded .........ughggg....each day a struggle to keep going and get work to get her here and take care of her....on the other hand.......neer find such a pearl of pearls of pearls of pearls u just want never to be away from......know I'm extremely lucky........extremely ...whod want me or have faith......she gives me purpose and a reason to go on........like new true people here....kid u not...............true compasnoiship.......i sooo miss my wife doc/brig ps u mean more to people than u may know....maybe they just can t say it.....or know how...........

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Weeks ago you helped me greatly friend. Talking about horses and stars. Just want you to feel like you had a purpose on that day…..your purpose was to help me move on with clarity and understanding.

Can’t stop thinking about that horse always wanting to be with his buddy❤️.

Have a blessed day friend you are a gift to many🙌

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I only reveal This herd to u people

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Yes the right horse. Life long friend. Only say that here to u all

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Think I’ll cut a sleeping area into the hill. Be so much easier to night. We are very capable

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Brother STOP sending her money. Use that money to give you the tools to retrain urself to be more than a barn sweeper.

No one owes us a dang thing & we owe others exactly the same . You miss ur ex or u miss another person woman to enjoy life with ?

Now this lady in Africa that seems to want the same thing. Now is it you that talks of it first or is it her or is it shared ?

Living off grid isn't for everyone & it's rare to find a lady who wishes to live that way & just means when she comes along you will know. Are you fully self sustained or are you on the energy grid for gas & electricity as well as water ?

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I have a hundred skills just getting hired

Get u but she’s not a user

Hear what yur saying

[DodgeDhanda in reply to Hidden]

Brother I've only pointed out the obvious & u seem to be fully aware .

Also if you have all these skill why not run a little class room where people pay you to learn what ever skill ur selling. Maybe that could help you on the income front.

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Just covering my back. No harm no foul. Good to go partner

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Grew up off grid Sooo.

Points well taken

[DodgeDhanda in reply to Hidden]

I've watched TV shows but am amazed how it's more physical than on the grid working in an office

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I’ve been farm kid and logged Very physical life soo it’s fine. I’m a duck in an office

Which is a dif kind of jungle for me

Thanks I’ll take a buddy any time

Hey did u check

Thanks man. U never know

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I went from riding ten horses a day to riding a desk. Soon I could barely walk around the block

Thff Ed body automatically degenerates. As sure u know

[DodgeDhanda in reply to Hidden]

Body may be failing but if mind isn't then others can do the heavy lifting. In later years we shouldn't let our stubbornness get in the way of advancing our lives & others knowledge. As u say u have a lifetimes worth of skills & knowledge having lived off grid ur whole life virtually & that knowledge should move onto someone who will make best use. U need an apprentice I think.