Somewhere Else

[mantis-toboggan]

For as long as I can remember, my mind has been somewhere other than where I am. Not always, but very often I feel like my mind is only thinking about the next thing I need to do or the next step I need to take. I feel like I'm always behind, like there's something I need to be doing to catch up. Before my doctor mentioned doing an inattentive ADHD assessment, I figured that was just my personality. I'm in school so I can't go home to get tested until my next break, so I'm stuck in this weird place where I don't know whether or not I have ADHD. There are certain "symptoms" of ADHD inattentive type that I really relate to, like constantly losing important things, missing appointments, becoming overstimulated easily, and "daydreaming" constantly. I also always feel like I always need to be doing something to keep up. It affects my self-esteem too, because I've been called "careless" and "scatterbrained" before -- even by myself. I just want to figure out what it is.

[Marysblue]

That's why there's so many spiritual gurus trying to teach us meditation and how to live in the present moment through mindfulness. I am still trying, and I'm guessing most people's mind must be retrained.