Hi everyone, I don't know how to narrate this all, I feel sad for apparently no reason. I feel helpless every time I check my social accounts and see people posting about their happy contented lives, it left me with an unexplainable sadness. Thoughts like I'm not good enough, I'm doing nothing with my life, I'll die doing nothing and sitting idle overwhelm me completely. Moreover, I find it hard to engage with people. People take it as rudeness or arrogance where all I face are constant thoughts of what others think about me, they are not giving me importance, my friends are not loyal to me, I'll die helpless and so on...... when at home I constantly talk to myself by creating certain situations in my head or spend my whole day lying in the bed watching some season, procrastinating on important tasks...I just feel helpless about getting up and doing chores that need to be done.